New to This |2| LaMelo Ball

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Dominique

"Babe I'm home!" I heard Melo yell. I didn't feel like responding or getting up, so I just continued to lay down.

"Really Dom?" He walked into our room, "You are in the same position you were in when I left." I rolled over, "And what's the problem with that?"

"The problem is that you're laying down surrounded by a whole bunch of junk food wrappers." He points to the mess I had made.

I grab the trash can that was on my side of the bed and throw away the trash. "Happy now?"

"No I'm not happy. I'm really worried about you Dom." Melo said, "All you do is lay down, eat junk, and watch tv. It's not good for you."

"What's not good for me, is the fact that I lost my son. The fact I will never get to see his first steps, or hear his voice."

"Dom it's not healthy to live like this, it's been over a month."

"You just don't get it! You didn't carry him in your stomach for nine months, and on top of that, you weren't even here for most of that time."

"And who's fault is that? You could have easily went to Lithuania with me but you chose not to!"

"That's because I was tired LaMelo! I was tired of always chasing you around, and putting up with your bullshit."

"There you go again," he rolled his eyes, "always playing the victim. Don't act like you've never done any wrong."

"I'm not acting that way, I know I did some fucked up things, but unlike you, I can admit that." All my built up emotions were rising inside me, "I've done wrong, but only after I was aware of the shit you were doing behind my back."

"So just because I was messing with people on the low, that makes it ok for you to do the same? "

"I don't know," I shrugged, "just because you go out the country does that make it ok for you to cheat?"

"WE WERE ON A BREAK!"

"We were on a break to find ourselves, not for you to find your way into some hoe's pants!"

"Why she gotta be a hoe?"

"Why do you feel the need to defend her?" I hate whenever he focuses on the least important part of what I said.

"I don't it's just- you know it doesn't matter. We've already moved past all this. The only thing that I'm worried about is you Dominique. You've haven't been outside in almost two months, you sleep all day and if you're not asleep, then you're watching the office."

"I don't need to worry about me, and I don't need you to take care of me."

"Yes you do, everybody needs someone to take care of them."

"Well I can take care of myself."

"I know that, but it doesn't always have to be that way. It's okay to depend on someone, it's okay to get help. Let me help you get through this, please Dominique."

"If you want to help me get through this, then let me do it in my own way. If laying around and being sad is what I need to do, then let me do it."

"Maybe you should go see a therapist." He suggests. I take in a deep breath,"I don't want to see a therapist." Ever since they told us we lost the baby, everyone has been saying we should go to therapy.

"What do you want then?" I take in a deep breath, "I want to get away from you. I can't stand the sight of you."

"Oh." Melo's face drops making me feel even worse."I didn't mean it like that-"

"No it's okay. If that's what you need then that's what you need. Just tell me when you're ready." He gives me a kiss on the forehead and walks away.

I just pushed away the one person I needed the most

••••••

I laid in my bed crying. The usual. After my fight with Melo the other day, I've been staying at my parent's house. It felt good to be home, but I was still hurting.

"Hey Dom," I heard my mom's voice, "I just wanted to check up on you."

"I'm okay mom." I told her as she came and sat on my bed. "Dom it's-"

"It's okay not to be okay. I already know." That's what everyone keeps telling me and I was sick of it."It's true sweetie. I love that you're a strong, independent young woman, but sometimes you'll feel weak, and need to depend on someone."

I felt bad for pushing everyone away these past few weeks. I secluded myself from the ones I love during a time I needed them the most.

I begin to think about Melo and all that he's done for me. He stayed by my side, held me when I would cry, made sure I took my medicine and so much more.

He missed practices, and was willing to miss games, but I wouldn't let him. It wasn't until I came back home when I realized how much I need Melo. I couldn't do this without him, and I wouldn't want to.

"You know LaMelo has called everyday since you've been here." My mom tells me, "He really loves you."

"I love him too mom." I tear up. "Then let him be here for you. You have him worried sick about you."

"I can't do it." I cry, "I can't look at him without seeing our son. Every time I look at him there's a constant reminder of Jr." I broke down.

"Oh baby come here," She scoops me into her arms, "I know it hurts, but later you'll be glad Melo serves as a reminder. On the days when you feel like you can't remember Jr. all you have to do is look at Melo."

"But what if he doesn't want me anymore? I told Melo I couldn't stand the sight of him." I sniffled.

"Dom Melo completely adores you, and I bet you didn't tell him what you just told me." She looks down at me, "All you have to do is tell him how you feel."

"That's the problem though," I get frustrated, "I don't know how I feel. Some days I'm mad, some days I'm sad, and other days I feel like I'm finally moving on. I don't know what to do with myself."

"Dom look at me," She lifts my chin up, "this kind of healing comes in waves. On some days you will drown, and on other days you will float. On some days you will feel broken, and on other days you will feel renewed. Be patient with yourself."

She gives me a tight squeeze and a kiss on the top of my head before leaving. I lay down and keep thinking of what she said. Some days will be harder than others, but I'll feel better soon.

Remember: Healing comes in waves

Do y'all think Dom is going to move forward or keep falling back?
Sorry for the slow updates, I'm trying to wait for Denise to have the baby😶