I identified as a contender girl up until late 2016/early 2017. I started using that label again, and honestly I hate it. I don't feel like a girl. I don't feel like anything at all, really. I live feminine and masculine clothes, and most often I find myself wishing I felt more comfortable wearing clothes that aren't "for girls."
I want to wear a suit instead of a dress all the time. Don't get me wrong, I love dresses, but I want to wear a suit.
I hate the girl's uniform at my school. We can wear pants, shorts, and skirts but all of the girls in my grade wear skirts (except Kennedy and she's like kinda cute so--) so I feel horrible if I don't. I have social anxiety so most often if I don't wear the same stuff as everyone else, I feel like everyone is staring at me and judging me. I hate it. I just wish I could wear all types of clothes and look/identify however I want without people judging me.
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RandomI'm really fine I just have a lot of messed up thoughts I don't act on them so don't worry All I actually do is sit on my phone all day
