A Hard Life Said In Soft Words

Letting Go of the Knife

Back then, my life was darker than ever
Lying to myself about how things were gonna get better
But I was so fed up with the lies, I went ahead and wrote a suicide letter

Talking about how I was tired of wearing my fake smile
Never feeling that I was home but in exile
How I never found anything to live for or worthwhile

Bought myself a nice-looking knife with the Punisher logo
When I showed it to others, they thought I was loco

They didn't know the purpose of it
Ready to use it when I had the best moment to just quit
No longer having the tolerance of being a fake-smile wearing hypocrite
Showing everyone that I was happy and fine while on the inside, I was feeling like total shit

One night my parents were fighting, which was never something new
Ready to just end it there, my knife I drew
Prepared to give this hostile world my final adieu

My father stormed in and took the knife from my possession
After being so blind, he finally saw my obvious depression
I could see the guilt in his eyes, knowing he was part of its progression

Skipping a few details and months, I heal bit by bit seeing the light shine on a new day
Keeping my dark thoughts at bay
Taking some time to learn, sing and pray

All I'm saying is this healing isn't a sprint; it's a long-ass marathon
And I know that many of you understand the journey I went on
Sadly, there are many that are still stuck on

I know what it's like to have those never-ending waterfalls in your eyes
Failing to find something to give you purpose, no matter the amount of tries
I can feel your pain and see your sadness through your cheap smiling disguise

I found my reason to live through Jesus Christ
And how He gave the world his ultimate sacrifice

I ain't here to preach at you though
All I'm saying is that there is something out there for you to help you heal and grow

Let go of the knife, take off the belt, unload the gun
I know you feeling pain but don't let it get worse for your loved ones

Find help however you can; don't be afraid to speak out
One day, you'll have the strength to throw your knife out