Dedicated to Sammy for trying to make me feel better. Damn I miss being eleven
So I found out my friend Vanessa has a wattpad. And she read my story. And we talked. And the conversation went kinda like this:
Me: hey
Her: hi can we talk
Me: sure yeah what's up
Her: so I finally went on wattpad like you told me and I went to your story thing so I guess you like me?
Me: when did I say that (and of course I'm sitting there thinking shitshitshitshitshit)
Her: in your story anyway I just wanted to tell you that I sure as hell don't like you back you broke me up with my perfect girlfriend and kissed me drunk you broke my heart a little while back by practically telling me I was unloveable what's to like
And then I never responded. I was crying too hard to see the keys. My stupid self stupidly lost my best friend ever. I feel like a massive bitch and like I'm a horrible person. Hello razor...
Anyways you probably don't give two shits about all the problems my idiocy causes. But if you need to talk just comment or pm me. I'll try to give you some decent advice. I'd also appreciate if nobody laughs at my problems and says "that's no big deal it's nota cause to harm yourself" if that's the route you'll take shut the fucking hell up. And I do appreciate the people who are all " the world loves you look to god" and shit but right now I kissed my same gender best friend and have a teeny crush on her. Fine maybe bigger than teeny. Actually, you know what? I'm gonna lay myself out for you here. I have a massive crush on her and I might love her. But this doesn't make me gay, ok? I'll get over it. At least I hope I will
Sorry for the depressing chapter guys. But I'm not in a happy bunny mood
