dirty little secrets

beautiful days 2/2

Anthony

It seemed like a gloomy day I had nothing to do, well I had to meet Jasmin in a little bit , but other than that nothing.
I still never understood myself in many ways. I knew what I was but many didn't.I was scared to admit in realization that I would break jaz and I wouldn't be able to live with that.
But everything we did I had to think of another person × scratch that one guy in mind but I felt so different around him,
Like I can't control any emotion. I wanna grab him, hold him ,kiss even marry...wait too much thought. I sat and recalled the memories we had together. All those times we felt each other, everyday I needed more but the further I got away , the harder my needing increased.I craved him, his touch , his chapped lips,the feeling of his part in my hand. I loved those times. As much as I loved him.

For what seemed like forever of thinking I came across the idea of me visiting him.
Butterflies flew in my stomach,
I had to before we go on the trip.
And with my mind racing I showed up at his apartment door

Apartment #625❤