dirty little secrets

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Alex

I felt embarrassed, scared, confused of what he would do?
What he would think?
All that ran through my mind was the word "freak".

Anthony

As I held on to his underwear, my eyes quickly searched the floor, there they were, his black jeans.
He sat there blank faced. That look he gave me was the look that he was utterly scared of what might happen.

Alex

I couldn't believe why I did this?
This was a mistake?
I felt like he would leave, so ashamed. I looked at the floor and pointed to the door. And then motioned for him to leave. That made things awkward because my hand wouldn't go down.
It felt like a ghost was holding it in that exact position.

Anthony

A sudden feelings took over me. I didn't wanna leave, I wanted to stay and explain what I really felt.
I grabbed his hand and wrapped my fingers around his. The feeling was so cold, so sad, empty.
He looked up at me so scared.
All I did was stare back, our eyes met.