Corrupted lies

Friend

Next morning
Yoongi's pov
Why does it feel like I'm numb? Like I don't feel anything? Like that there is no emotion in me? I never showed emotion..but I felt it when I was with...her...of course I'm a vampire, by now I think she forgot..I suck peoples blood, I do unimaginable stuff,I can take very good control of my teeth when she is close to me ... I just don't want to hurt her..but I did it even tho I didn't mean to, do I love her? Perhaps...but I just feel done and useless..like it all was for nothing,I know we were supposed to use them but nobody wanted that. Not after how close they got with us...like they are family now,but I wasn't supposed to show that, I couldn't...I had no choice
I don't necessarily like her but I also don't want to hurt her
It's SO confusing I get absolutely nothing of life and why it's here in the first place and is everything meant to be? Or it's just nothing? I have questions which will never be answered,I'm a monster no one likes me neither will they ever..that is my reality,no one wants to sit next to me, no one wants to see me,no one wants to talk to me,no one wants to date me....that is just how my life works.
Even if I had a normal  life I would be different
I just don't belong anywhere
An outcast thats what I am and I'll always be....

These are the words haunting me every single day and night like a lost ghost

Jin: WAKE UP!
Yoongi: what!? happened?
Jin: it's the day of the fight!
Yoongi: then why are you waking me up at ( looks at watch) 3:30 AM!
Jin: cuz namjoon said so ( walks away)
Yoongi: ugh ( stands up from bed goes outside)
Jimin: so good night sleep?
Yoongi: it was alright
Hobi: hey! What is u__
Yoongi: shut up...be quiet
Hobi: o a-alright

I could feel y/n looking at me like she saw a ghost but a very light expression on her face..

Y/n: o hey hobi can you come with me I will show you something cool
Hobi: yes of course
Ryan: are you going to show him kai
Y/n: it was supposed to be a surprise dumbass
Hobi: I still don't know who or what kai is

yeah..... who is that "kai" guy

Yoongi: um jimin do you maybe know who that kai is
Jimin: nope why tho?
Yoongi: hmm nothing
Jimin: alright...

so I decided that if I find that kai boy I'll ask him some questions

ITS A CAT?! wow I really thought it was a boy not that I care....

Y/n: so see Tae it really is not an alien from outer space,get it?
Tae: I still don't trust this thing but alright if you say so

Y/n pov

  Tae thought that the cat was an alien but I assured him that it's just a cat
He still doesn't fully trust kai he's afraid he'll attack him,I think it's going to happen the other way around....

Me and kian just went out on a little walk around the area cuz we had our camp in such a beautiful place... I decided to ignore what happened yesterday and just continue as friends,when suddenly......

Hey guys!
So this was a shot one,sorryyyyy. But I really wanted it out today so had to do, LOVE YOU ALL❣️