There were beeping noises all around me. I finally gained my focus back. I was in a hospital. No one was in there and the silence was deafening. My head was pounding so I decided to push the nurses button.
"You paged a nurse sweety are you ok?" A tall red head nurse came in smiling. She seemed nice and caring.
"I just have a really bad headache. And the silence is actually making it worse."
"Ok Harmony. I'll go get you some aspirin."
After a while my mom finally came.
"Mom can I please have my phone." I begged her. I needed to see if Nash tweeted anything.
"Harmony, you aren't having your phone back until you are better."
I was furious. "Mom! I'm fine. I am better. Please."
"You tried killing yourself. That is not fine. You really need help harmony."
"Maybe if you would care, you'd actually help me." I gave my mom a look that I kinda regretted. And I wish I didn't say that. What I said was harsh but it was true. My mom got up tossed my phone to me and left to the vending machines. That was all of our conversation.
20+ notifications on my twitter. That's a first. I go and click my notifications and everyone is tweeting me "Congrats! You deserved it!" I didn't know what that meant and so I replied, "what do you mean?" About 30 seconds later @TbhNashtyCam replied back, "You don't know? Lol nash tweeted you :)" my heart stopped. Two days ago when I tried ending my life, I layed on my bed and tweeted nash, "I love you and I'll love you till the very end." 2 minutes after I went unconscious my phone was blowing up. I went to nashes twitter and it said those amazing words next to his name "Follows You" I teared up. He had tweeted me back "I love you to. ❤️" I DMed him and I told him everything. How I tried killing myself, how people at school kept spreading rumors, everything. He'll probably never see it because he has 2.8 million followers.
"Harmony... Wake up. The nurse said we can leave now." My mom shook me awake. I had fallen asleep for a few hours. I got my stuff, changed, and got in the car. The car ride was the same deafening quiet as the hospital. Silence scares me. It's as if you're trapped in a coffin buried underground and if you woke up no one would hear your screams. No one in my family talked to me. They were all disappointed in me. Normal families would help me and talk through things with me.
*TEXTS*
Mom
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Me- can I please stay home tomorrow I do not wanna go to school
Mom- I don't care what you say. You are going to school.
Me- Whatever ._.
That night I lay in bed thinking about what it'd be like to have nash fall in love with me. I read fan fictions all the time on my phone, just dreaming that it was me in that phone. Having a perfect life, marrying your idol. But I guess that's not how things work.
The next day at school, I didn't go. My mom thinks I did. But I just walked out of the house and stayed outside by the Fred's Pizza Hut by my school. I couldn't imagine going back to that hell. Me trying to end my life probably got around. I'm probably known is the suicidal depressed girl. I couldn't imagine getting tormented with that. All of a sudden my phone beeped. I looked town and it said New twitter notifications. I assumed it was people tweeting me congrats again. I unlock my phone and go to twitter. *New dm*
*DMS*
@lexi261grier- please dm nash for me
@camislife__- thanks for following back love you
