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personal q&a!

these were asked like a year ago but i was too scared to publish the answers. so i decided to reanswer these!

warning: these get EXTREMELY personal and explicit!

WHAT'S YOUR REAL NAME?
my real name is alex! i'm not going to share my deadname here, but i mention it a few times in this book, if you look back.

HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN IN A FIGHT?
yes. it was really stupid and i don't like to think about it, but a girl kept gossiping about her other friends on why i changed my name from my deadname to alex. it made me really angry so i punched her.

HAVE YOU EVER KISSED SOMEONE?
yes! i had a crush on a boy AND his ex, and i was supposed to help my boy crush and his ex get back together but she kissed me in the bathroom. then she moves like a day later. also i almost kissed someone a week ago more on tht later

WHEN DID YOU DISCOVER YOUR SEXUALITY?
i still haven't. tbh i think im a biromantic lesbian, and that's what i'll stuck with. my worst problem has been boys. yes, they're cute, and yes, i crush on them. but right now, i don't imagine dating one. so it's a work in progress

MOST VIOLENT THING YOU HAVE EVER SEEN?
a boy was playing basketball and he banged his head on the roof of a shed. he almost snapped his neck and was in the hospital for months. this was roughly seven years ago. i hope he's okay now.

EXPLAIN THE PERSON YOU HATE THE MOST.
i don't really have people. but most homophobic, racist and sexist world leaders get my blood BOILING.

HOW DO YOU REACT IRL TO HATE ON WP?
i don't really get hate. but when i do, this is going to sound weird, i honestly don't care. like i don't get sad or mad or whatever. i just defend myself, report, and maybe comment a lot, but as long as it's not "im going to kill you" levels im chill

WHAT'S THE MOST AMOUNT OF FRIENDS YOU LOST AT ONCE AND WHY DID YOU LOSE THEM?
probably a few weeks ago with xxx's death. so many of my friends defended him or attacked me for calling him horrible. or they would tell me they like his music, but not him then call me rude. i've moved on, but it sucks i lost so many friends because they liked an abuser. please don't comment "wasn't the evidence fake?" or "i just like his music"

HAVE YOU EVER EXPERIENCED TRANSPHOBIA?
yeah, ironically today. i just started using my real pronouns and name at camp and some kid in my class just literally could not grasp the fact there was more then two genders and kept purposefully misgendering me and calling me by my deadname. I DIDN'T EVEN INTRODUCE MYSELF WITH MY DEADNAME. so i don't know how he found my deadname, but it really sucked. luckily the counselors called him out for it.

WHAT'S THE MOST INTIMATE MOMENT YOU'VE HAD?
hhh this is so embarrassing but i almost kissed this boy at camp a week ago. like we were hanging in my bed room and playing around like hitting each other with pillows. we were super close then BOOM our lips are close and we're like about to kiss ur then our counselor called us down for dinner,,, we haven't come close to kissing since and i? may? like?? him??? maybe

WOULD YOU RATHER BURN TO DEATH OR DROWN?
i have a fear of spewing. like it's extremely irrational. so burning.

WHAT'S THE WORST THING YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH ON THIS SITE?
maybe a year ago when a person like stalked my activity or something bc she wanted it prove i said something mean. like i know i didn't say it, but the fact she was stalking my feed unnerved me so much i just deleted all of it

WHICH FICTIONAL CHARACTERS HAVE HELPED YOU THE MOST AND WHY?
i. alex fierro- when I started going by they/them pronouns in real life (a few months ago) i chose the name alex bc of alex f. they're so spunky and cool and i just love them. also being caked alex makes me feel like im a hip child of loki
ii. keith kogane- he hasn't helped me but he makes me happy 💘 let my gay furry son live and canonically date his bf lance cowards
iii. sabrina spellman- awakened my inner witch i will be forever grateful

WHAT DO YOU REGRET MOST?
probably the fight i started as stated in questions above. i really could have handled it civilly but i just snapped. i ended up getting in a lot of trouble, and it just wasn't worth it

IF YOU COULD TURN BACK TIME WHAT WOUKD YOU DO?
probably go back a week ago and kiss that boy before dinner happened lmao,,, see what happened from there. bc i don't know if i like him or not so that would have probably been able to tell me since ive never kissed a boy before

KINK?
love and affection