DM's (2Jae)

update 2

I'm sorry that I was too weak to go through with my plan, I just couldn't, no matter how much I wanted to. I'm sorry. I complained for nothing. I wasted the time of others. Guess I won't have to die... Hope you guys have enjoyed this, but it's a bit hard to continue because now I know the one person that liked me, now hates me...I hope they'll get over it. I got them mad because we were texting and I kept joking around and being sarcastic, while they were dead serious. It's hard to bring myself to believe they'll hate me forever. I miss talking to them normally and it hasn't even been a day. I'm a bit clingy with people who will actually talk to me because I'm awkward around new people. I'm a horrible person tbh. I'm too greedy, wanting someone to myself only and I'm too clingy, I will hang around people until they get tired of me and become mad. It's hard to change and be independent when you're someone who relies on one person to keep on living. I can't do anything and I'm too weak to stand up for myself or other people. Sorry I rambled so much and wasted a few of your minutes on this chapter and this horrible story in general. Oh yeah, and my grandma is in the hospital after having a few strokes. This is her second time going to the emergency room this summer. I wish you the best with the people you love. Take care <3

P.S. I may make a new story just to ramble about my life and thoughts...