The true meaning of LOVE

Part 33

June 15, 20--

Ji Won was in his depressed state again. There was this empty void inside him that he couldn't erase. It was a recurring pain that never seemed to end. He felt lonely.

Whenever he sees Min Sung and Kyung Hee together, it disturbs him. He could't figure out what it was but he kept finding something wrong with the picture. Then a knock came on his door.

"Come in," he said, without bothering to see who it was.

I entered Ji Won's room holding a tray of food. Now these days since he was in his isolated stage, he didn't eat much anymore. I was beginning to worry. I didn't have much time left with him so I wanted to take care of him the best I could with the time I still had left.

"Hyung? Are you hungry? I brought you some food."

Ji Won turned around to see who it was. It was Min Sung. "Just put it down." Min Sung placed it down before Ji Won. Ramyun, mee-yuk-gook, rice, and curry. 'How does he know I like these food?' Ji Won thought. "Take it away I don't want it."

"But hyung, you haven't eaten for days. Please eat a little bit."

"I said take it away!" Ji Won yelled, his anger exploding. He knocked over the tray of food. It ended up spilling all over Min Sung. Ji Won and Min Sung stared at each other. Neither of them knew what to say. Min Sung leaned over to clean up the spilled food and then left.

Ji Won fell back in his chair. He ran his hands through his hair frustrated. Min Sung was too much like Mina that it was driving him crazy. Ji Won knew he was out of line though, so he began to walk to Min Sung's room to apologize.

'What a mess', I thought as I stripped out of my clothes. I soaked myself into a hot water bath, hoping it could wash away all my troubles. When I was done with my bath, I wrapped myself up in a towel and got out of the tub. Then I heard my room door open and then close.

'Must be Kyung Hee', I thought as I began to put my clothes on.

Ji Won entered Min Sung's room, not knowing what to say. He wasn't good at apologizing. He looked around and didn't see Min Sung anywhere. Then he heard the sound of water draining. He figured Min Sung must be in the bathroom.

Ji Won opened the door slightly and saw Min Sung's bare back. He shuts the door quietly and began to leave. He planned to apologize later but then his mind began to sort out what he had just seen. Min Sung's back had an 'E' on it. Ji Won breaks the open the door to the bathroom.

I was buttoning up my long sleeve shirt when my door suddenly opened. I stared at Ji Won in shock but then remembered I wasn't completely dressed yet. I buttoned up the remaining buttons and then faced him.

"Hyung!" I said surprised. "What are you doing here?" I caught Ji Won looking down at my shirt. I had buttoned it all wrong and a great deal of my body was showing. Oh hell, I thought. "Hyung, I can explain-" I began to tell him but I never had a chance to.

Ji Won stared at Min Sung's exposed body. Without thinking, he ripped open Min Sung's shirt finding that Min Sung was indeed a woman. Min Sung stood still, stunned at what Ji Won had just did. He turned Min Sung's back to him. There it was. His 'E.'

"M...Mina?" he asked uncertainly, afraid to hope.

I didn't know what I was more embarrassed from. Letting Ji Won expose me or being caught. In all my life I had never been angry at Ji Won but I didn't know why I reacted impulsively. As I held my shirt together, I slapped Ji Won across the face hard with my other hand. His head snapped to the side. He held his cheeks as he turned to face me.

"How could you do this to me Ji Won?" I asked him screaming. "Get out! Get out!" I started to push him out the door.

Ji Won was in shock. Mina, he thought. He grabbed her arms as she pushed him out. "Mina, don't! Is it really you?"

I glared at him. As if he knew, Ji Won took off his jacket and puts it around my shoulders. I zipped it up, covering myself. "Yes Ji Won, it is me Mina."

"But I thought you were dead."

"I didn't die. I faked my death."

"Why?"

"So I could go to Korea."

"You came all the way from Hawaii to find me? Why didn't you just tell me who you are?"

Ji Won looked at Mina, who had tears coming out of her eyes. He was about to brush them off for her but then Mina pushed his hand away.

"That's the only way I could do to be with you. Join SechsKies." Ji Won stared at Mina as she continued talking. "After you left me all alone in Hawaii, my life became so miserable. Not because of my stepmom, but because of you. I finally found a way to leave Hawaii to find you. I was so happy when I thought about how I could see you again. I thought-"

Ji Won began to feel a rush of mixed emotions. Mina's words made him sad but seeing her alive in front of him, made him want to hold onto her and never let her go. He paused to let her continue.

"-I thought that we could be together like we were….oppa and dongsang in Hawaii. But obviously, I was wrong. You had all those girls around you that you've completely forgotten about me."

Ji Won felt his heart shatter into a million pieces. Each one of Mina's words stabbed him like a knife. "Mina, you don't understand. I-" Mina didn't wait for his explanation and ran. Ji Won chased after her.

"Mina!" he yelled as he chased her out of the hotel.

"Hyung," said Su Won as he saw Ji Won ran by him. Ji Won pushed him out of the way.

Kyung Hee ran up to the 5 Kies. "What happened?"

Su Won shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know. Ji Won was chasing Min Sung and kept screaming Mina."

Kyung Hee stumbled back and Sung Hoon caught her. 'Oh no, poor Mina,' she thought. She turned around to see Sung Hoon looking at her sadly. Kyung Hee moved close to him and held onto him tight. Neither one of them lets go.