Accidental Fluffy Love {Ryden Fanfic}

Chapter 4.

(Brendon's p.o.v)
      I woke up to the slamming of the door, once again. I sighed and looked for Ryro, he wasn't in sight. He usually slept with me until I woke up. Well it's different now, since he's a human.
Maybe he lied, he left probably. I sat up on the grungy bed and looked around my room. No Fluffy, I mean no Ryan around here. I lifted the blankets off me onto the floor with strenth and heard
 a thud. A little meow went off. I got off the bed and lifted the blankets. There he was, my Ryan.
"Sorry I threw you!" I said frantically while picking him up and holding him to my chest. "I thought you left me," I  kissed his head. His tiny kitty face was angry, "I'm sorry!" I laughed at
 his expression. It was a cute little mad face. "You might want to change into a human now, we have the house to ourselves today." I told him, putting him down in the process.
  He hid under the covers and a body grew. "Hey can you hand me my clothes," He said, muffled under the blankets. I grinned and tossed them under. I changed as well into my
black jeans, Green Day t-shirt, and some hamburger socks. Once I was finished, I waited for Ryan to get changed, he takes awhile.
"You know, it's kind of hard to change under a blanket. " He pointed out. "Fine, I'll leave Princess." I called out before leaving my room. I waited in the hallway for while, what took him so
 long. I thought about scaring him, but he would turn into a cat again. Today is going to be a human day, and for some reason. I completely trust him.
      I couldn't take waiting any longer and barged in. My heart stopped when I saw him, he was reading my journal. "Hey!" I yelled, taking it away from him. He looks like he's seen a ghost. Probably
 cause I caught him reading it. "What are you doing!?" I yell almost harshly.
"I-I'm sorry." He gets up and walks straight passed me. "Where are you going?" I call out as he leaves the front door. I slam my fists at the wall and slide down it with my fist clenched.
I start to quietly sob. I'm always alone, always. I'm too different for people, even cats. Nobody even wants to be around me. I cry into my knees softly.
   I flinch when I feel a hand touch my elbow. I glance up and see that it's just Ryan. I relax back into my crying position.
"Why are you crying?" He whispers. I look up at his beautiful face, "I thought you left me," I said embarrassed. Okay I know it'a really ridiculous to cry over that, but I just need him. I don't
know why, but I just do. It's strange.
    "Honestly, I was," I choked a little bit at that, "But, I decided not to, because I need you and I promised." He looked at his hands and up into my eyes. There was a moment of blissful silence. Just us staring
 at each other until our eyes burned.
"So, um what did you read?" I say, looking away from him. I fiddle with my weird, white hands, waiting for a reply. He blushed a little bit. I'm scared on what he's going to say, because
I wrote some really really personal things in that book. I got that book when I was 6, for my birthday. I was so grateful because my parents literally had no money,
it was a dark time for us, and they actually got me something. I kept that book ever since, and just someone reading it makes me sick in the stomach.
 "Um" he shifted, "I read the most recent thing you wrote." He said quickly. I cleared my throat, "And what exactly was that?"
"You-you were lonely and you wanted to kill yourself some days cause you thought it would help your parents with money." He let out. He was right. I wrote that one down about
 5 days before I found Ryan. Of course I didn't do it, I just thought about it sometimes. Occasionally I would look at the pill cabinet, but close it again. I can't imagine my parents
staring down at my casket. They would be broken.
"And also you wrote some songs." He continued, "They-they were amazing." He lifted my head so I could look at him. He looked close to tears. I nodded and said thanks.
"So now you know why I'm crying." I simply said, shrugging. "Yes, and I don't want that to happen anymore, I'm staying with you, you lonely bastard." He laughs and kissed my head.
Red swims up to cheeks as he holds me in his arms. Now he's the one holding me, I guess this is what it feels like to have somebody.
      I realize we are still sitting on the floor. It's a hard wood floor and it's hurting my bum. "Hey I like this and all, but can we move to the couch." I broke the silence. He laughs and stands up. He pulls
 me up and I crash into him awkwardly. I am grasping on his shoulders and I look up at him in the eye. "Hey," Ryan bites his lip. He smells like nature, I like it.
"Hey," I reply, still holding him, "Whatcha doing?" He says. I snap myself back into reality and push myself away from him. Stupid Brendon, people aren't like you. He probably isn't
 even what you are.
"Uh Sorry," I walk away to the couch. I crash down onto the squeaky cushions. I look up at Ryan, he goes and sits on the other couch. Well then, okay. I guess no cuddles. I mean come
 on he did it while he was a cat, why can't he do it now. Did I make things weird? of course I do, I always do. This is why I don't have friends. I put in a movie, The Incredibles. We watched,
 occasionally looking at each other.
 
         During those moments of watching, I started thinking about Ryan and how would it be if we were together. Like would we kiss, or would it be weird. Would I ever like him
 more as a friend? I started imagining fantasy's with him. Like coming home to him and making dinner together, or even our first kiss. Of course, I let these things go to my head. My head is
wrapped around him, I can't get him out of my mind. Even trying to watch the stupid movie, I can't stop thinking about him. Like Dash's eyes reminds me of Ryan's and then
 I go into a trance of thought. I think I'm starting to convince myself that I like him. Maybe, maybe not. I don't know. I'm locked away in this cloud that suffocates my air and won't let me
down. I was so lost, I didn't even realize Ryan was calling my name.
"What?" I snap back and glance at him.
"Are you okay?" he asks, concerned.
"Um, yea just cold." I lie, well not exactly, It's kinda cold. Just a slight breeze.
"Oh, Um, here." He gets up and walks over to my couch. He points at the couch as if he's saying 'can I sit here'. I smile and nod. He sits down and pulls his arms around my shoulders.
Pulling me towards him. I relax a bit and lay back on his chest. I can't stop grinning for some reason, this just feels right. Like how peas go inside a pod. He's the pod, I'm the pea.
            He eases into the cuddle and strokes my hair. I could just sleep here, but I'll save that for tonight.  "You warm?" He asked. I nod.
The movie was over. Neither of us wanted to get up to change it because that means we have to move from this position. We just sat there, then he said something that kinda broke me,
"Your like a brother to me Brendon," He sighed out,  I could hear his smile. I forced a smile and nodded, "Same here to you Ryro."