BBRae - MY love Rae

chapter 3 - He knows.

  
Raven

I sat there in my bed confused.
If anything I would've thought Starfire would check up on me. Out of everyone here Beast Boy checked up on me? Why?
Why would Beast boy check up on me!?
And there's no way I left my door unlocked. I always lock my door.

But I have better things to do then sit here confused. It's time to pay love another visit.
I then got up and out of the covers and walked towards my mirror, the one that leads into my mind. Standing in front of the mirror I lightly touched the glass, and in a couple seconds I was in.
I took my time walking thinking of him.
His emerald eyes, and his pointy ears, and...... wait stop! Stop thinking about him, he doesn't like you back. Stop hurting yourself.
I then reached at love's door step, and gently knocked on her door.

"Love we need to talk!"

Surprisingly I got no answer, but then I heard her running around droppings things and such.
"Love-"

"Yes Raven, here I am, come inside, would you like some tea?" she said as she dragged me inside.

Soon enough I was sitting down on the floor at her tea table, across from her.

"um Love-" I tried to speak

"Herbal tea?" she asked me as she poured some tea into my cup.

"Uhh... Love-"

"How has your day been? oh mine has been great, actually. Yeah I bumped into brave earlier, ahh she was hilarious and such. I've been reading books all day as well. Romanctic books to be particular. omg! have you read The Fault In Our Skies yet? I heard the movie came out, you should watch it and-"

"Love!" I screamed. "We need to talk."

" about what!? Boys!? I don't know any boys. Do you know any boys?" she said quickly.

"Yes about boys! That's why I've been coming here for the past couple of weeks, Love."

" Oh..."

"Why Beast Boy. Like why do we have to like Beast Boy?!"

"Well in my Defense, I'm only a part of you. Just a emotion. So really, you're the one who likes Beast Boy. I just determine who you like. But again, love is a confusing thing. Can be heart breaking-"

"Love, stop, what is wrong with you?" I asked

"um.. No- nothing, I'm great I had an amazing day, I really want to watch it though-"

"Love seriously your acting like nervous. Did you guys get your emotions switched? AGAIN?"

"what n-no, that was nervous's fault not mine." she said defending herself.

Then I smelled a familiar scent.

"pizza?" I murmured to myself.

"uh-ummm...lets talk outside side its really cloudy and breezy outside, just how you like it." Love said panicking.

"Uh okay then." I agreed. "But I'm not not done with our talk about Beast Boy." I started as we walked towards the door.

"Uh-huh."

"yeah, so I was thinking it's a bit awkward. Me liking him. It doesn't make any sense."

"What? Nonsense! There is nothing wrong with that at all." Love said.

"Maybe I should give up." I said looking at the pond by the tree.

"no no- no need for that."

"Yeah but who'd fall in love with a Demon, especially the daughter of Tri-" I stopped as I noticed something sparkle in the pond. Something silver.

"What's that?"

"What..?"

I then reached for it finding out it was a silver pendant. I opened it to find a photo of beast boy and his parents. I then quickly looked at Love.

"Do you know what this is, Love?" I asked her suspiciously.

"umm... n-no, I-i-i've never seen anything like it b-before" Love started to sweat nervously.

"That's it, the stench of vegetarian pizza, tofu and Beast boy's amulet in the pond."

I murmured to myself.

"You! You let him in!" I yelled at her.

"uhmm.....no." she tried to lie.

"Don't you lie to me! How could you! why would you do that!? You know very well that I'm still figuring things out!" I yelled again.

"I'm sorry, but there was some stuff he needed to know. He needed to understand-" she said apologetically.

"wait....what kind of stuff?"

Love avoided eye contact.
"Ever since that wizard you've been more distant. You're in love with him Raven but you keep on denying-"

"He knows?"

"Yes but don't freak out okay. He needed to know."

My hands rested on my forehead.

"You've been crying, thinking you're not good enough for anyone but you are...and he can help you realize that!"

"No! Love how...how could you!?"

Love didnt have anything else to say.
So I stormed out of Love's backyard and teleported back into my room.

I leaned on the wall slowly sliding down. 'He knows.'

Before I knew it tears had fell down my cheeks.

'He knows. He knows.' I repeated it in my head.
No. no. No.
He can't know! I kept my distant from everyone because I didn't want to get hurt. I didn't want be be betrayed!
Now I've gone and betrayed myself.

The tears began to rush down my face. I kept on wiping them, but they kept on pouring and pouring.
Just like the endless pain in me.

"He knows."