I woke up to a message from Kentrell.
Trell: Im sorry for everything I put you through. I love you with all my heart and i'm neva gon stop cuz u the motha of my child but because of who you are. I know dis may sound like a whole bunch of bs but just kno i'm here for you.
That message made me feel like I fucked everything up. I wanted to be with august, I just did some dumb shit.
I texted august and told him to come home.
30 minutes later I heard keys rambling at the door so I assumed it was august. I watched him come to the living room and sit by me. My heart felt up with guilt.
"I need to talk to you." I said as my eyes started to water up.
"Yea me too. I cancelled the tour. My fans are let down but i did it for you. Family comes first before anything and if I have to put my music before you than I guess I have to do that. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner." He says while kissing my forehead.
My eyes filled up with water but eventually let it all out. I was crying uncontrollably. "Noo why did you do that." I say stumbling through the sentence because of my sobs. "I had sex with Kentrell last night." I say putting my head down crying. I heard no response. "August please. I'm so sorry. I wasn't thinking last night. I was hurt and mad." I say in between my sobs. He got up and punched the wall leaving a hole making me jump.
"FUCK man!" He shouts out putting his head in his hands.
"Do you love him?" He says lowly.
"Huh?" I ask.
"DO YOU LOVE HIM?" He yells standing up in my face.
"No aug, I love YOU. I want to be with YOU. please im so sorry I hurt you." I say trying to move closer to him but he gets up and leaves.
"I need to leave and clear my mind." He says sternly. Looking me in my eyes I see the heartbreak in his eyes.
I broke 2 niggas hearts in the past year. What is up with me? But I understood his choice. I just hope he doesn't leave me. I made a dumbass decision and i'm owning up to it.
I went upstairs to my room and got on my knees and began to pray.
"God please don't let the man of my dreams walk out of my life. I made a dumb decision and i'm owning up to it. I know i'm wrong and I know he has all the right to be mad, but I can't be separated from him. That's the love of my life and I needed to be with him. " I finished my prayer and wiped the tears from my eyes and began to fall asleep.
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I know it's short.
