Nct imagines 2

My story of first year of middle school through rap lyrics

Now I'm sorta a composer....since I play two instruments. But this is how I wanted to express my feelings when I was in the first year of middle school. Hope you enjoy (warning: depressing thoughts are in these lyrics)

Say goodbye to my friends,
Say goodbye to my life
Who cares about my shit
It's my own life!

Fate and trust in all of you,
I was no one,
And so were you.
Fuck it....I don't give a damn anymore!

All the tests all the studying
With you around,
You made me miserable
I was a ghost to anyone now!

"Bullshit, drama" is all I caused to you
Sorry to say,
But I have opinions too.

Restless nights after night after night
All the problems I caused to you were a fight!
To much to handle....to much to say....
Then I wondered
"Should I end it this way?"

I was petty and jealous
Of all your friends
I thought you took me in
But bullshit happened again!

End of the day, I was cold and tired
Not even my family knew
It was a battle between myself for hours
"Should I say sorry...but she caused it all!"
Make up your mind, and don't talk to her at all!

Next day at school, I went to the locker room,
My secret hideout that know one knew.
I plugged in my earbuds
And drifted away
My thoughts through my head
Always repeated what they say

"Should I end my life? Should I cut myself?"
But my loved ones will suffer as well.
This one person...made me happy
This one person made me depressed

This one person.....is just one person.
She dug into me,
It was too harsh for me,
It all drifted away once
It was the last day
Of the school day....

(Phew.....that let out my anger and feelings so much. It was like a happy and fun....but also a sad and depressing school year. I all let that go....and I hope nothing turns into something like that again. Don't worry, I just had depressing moments. I was hesitant to cut myself but I thought about my family and friends....so I stayed strong for them. I'm not like that anymore. I'm very cheerful and happy! Remember.....stay with your real friends instead of fake friends.)