Our First Encounter

Boredom

Recap: "Stop crying..." I started. I love how he cares so much, but I'm not worth shedding a tear for. No one is going to want a kid like me anyways, right? We got dressed into different clothes and Nathan's mom was waiting at the door to get going. She had a blue Subaru and it was quite nice, just as nice as Nathan's car. I got into the backseat with Nathan, and his dad took the front. Here we go.

The ride was pretty silent and Nathan was looking out the window with his hand on his leg. I got bored and started playing with my fingers, tapping my feet... Flicking my tongue. Finally I stopped and looked back over to Nathan, who was still looking out the window. I placed my hand on his and he grabbed onto mine. Yay! He's still alive. He looked back over to me with puffy eyes.

"Sorry I'm being an asshole." He said. He's not being an asshole. Hahaha... He's being a total douche bag, he can at least play nicer.

"You're not... You're fine. Why are you so upset anyways?" I asked he turned away for a split second.

"I don't want you to go." He said and then I felt stupid. Oh yeah... I don't want to get adopted or whatever I want to stay with him too. I probably won't ever be able to see him. To... Kiss him. To never shower with him again. To...

"Don't cry." Nathan said. I haven't even realized I was crying... It comes so natural to me. I would totally kiss him right now if his parents weren't in the front seat. I think I may have a plan... Do you think if I act like an asshole this would work out? Hmm... I can't do that. I guess... I hope no one will like me. The car stopped and I got knocked out of my thoughts.

"Well... We're here." Nathan's mom said blankly. We got out of the car and walked up to the building. It was a tall, wide, plain looking building and I actually really wanted to see what was beyond the doors.

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We all walked out of the building and it wasn't too bad... Day after day everything started to feel normal again and it was fun.  I went to boring school and came back greeting Nathan with a hug and kiss and we hung out, It was great. Everyday with Nathan is heaven. He didn't lie about  buying me pink stuff... He got a lot of my clothes in pink and kept saying 'pinks your color'... Then he got me a red jacket and changed his mind quickly. 'Wow! You look amazing in red' he said. I chilled back and took the compliments, black is still my favorite. It was really fun being around him so much. He became... Very dominant, but still his sweet self.

-Some time later-

Well... Let's just say Nathan's 18 now. I mean everything feels the same, it's just... It feels like I'm dating an adult, I mean I am but... Yeah. I'm 15 so, yeah... You heard it 15 and 18. Face plant. I still love him, it's only a three year age difference and when I think deeply into it. When I'm twenty... He'll be twenty three. The thought made me smile, but that's still some time into the future. It's nice to be able to share a bed with your boyfriend and go out in public and have fun. He gets really... Touchy though. I feel like a lot of the times he want to- and I feel bad that I'm making him wait... But, I have to be eighteen for that, right? I sighed at the thought of it while eating ice cream. Even though I'm lactose intolerant, I'd never turn down coffee flavored ice cream. Nathan got cookies and cream and it was a lot of fun. A year had passed and bad news came up... I'm getting adopted. I mean, this is so stupid. Why can't Nathan's parents just adopt me? Does it cost a lot of something... Do they not like me? Well. Hell to it, my life has began to suck more. I tried to keep my mind off of thinks by drawing... Which works. Then again, every time I fail I throw a tantrum like a child. I just wish... Talent came easier, I wish I could be better at everything.

-Some odd weeks later-
So... I met the family, I'm supposedly moving into their place by next week. I'm going to make every single last seven days with Nathan, at the moment, count. On the first day we went to the movies and it was a lot of fun. We kept making plans and such and it sounded like fun. My adoptive parents live about fifteen minutes away, so... He can drive to see me a lot. They apparently have a son... Which I'm semi-happy to meet. He's my... My brothers age just about, so it'll be like having a little brother again. I hope.

We came back home and we were laughing on the way to the front door. It was so much fun and Nathan's tongue was still blue from the candies we ate. My tongue was red... So pretty much, no change. We walked up into our room and sat. We were talking and laughing a lot, and it was nice and peaceful with his parents gone.

"Hey, I wonder... What does blue and red make?" Nathan said stroking his invisible beard. I looked at him like he was a complete idiot.

"Purple... Blue and red makes purple." I said and laid down. There was a moment of silence and I was questioning the stupidity of his question. He looked at me with a wide smile.

"Oh really? Wanna try that out?" He said. Oh... Am I slow, or what? I shook my head and he brought me into a deep kiss. We were kissing for quite a while and he started to tug at my pants.

"I umm..." I started and he stopped for a quick second.

"What?" He said kissing my hand. I looked at him and looked away. I can't say it. There's no way I can... Jeez it's too embarrassing. Maybe he's not trying to sleep with me or anything... Just kiss, right?

"Hmm... Tell me, alright?" He said with concern written all over his face. Alright I have to tell him. Gosh I'm going to die of embarrassment.

"I... I don't want to like... Do that..." I said turning red and looking away. Face plant. He let out a slight laugher. What the hells so funny? I mean... There really nothing funny. I crossed my arms and pulled my shirt back down, which seemed to shut him up.

"Sorry... I just wasn't planning to do that. That's something both of us have to want, doesn't seem to me like you do. So..." He said and moved back closer to my face.

"That means... You want to though?" I said and my face got really red from asking such an idiotic questions. Of course he does, I mean honestly... I know he does. He chuckled again.

"Of course, every since this was official I wanted to. As long as you don't want to, I'll wait." He said with a slight smile. Dang, now I feel bad. He could probably date someone that would want to if he wanted to. Why is he wasting his time with me? Jeez, I'm such a let down! We just started laughing lowly and made out some more. Now... Sometimes I wonder that doing it probably wouldn't be so bad if kissing is so amazing. Then we relaxed and drifted off to sleep.

Sorry all the skipped, those parts were just unnecessary and boring... So I didn't want to add them. I hope you did still enjoy though. :)

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