THE EDGE (ManxMan)

Chapter 4.

Today was finally the day, I was going to tell Felix that I love him. I know, cheesy right? It's not like I can help it, I've been trying not to say those words so I wouldn't scare him away, but we're mates so it's not like he can't feel the attraction towards me, right?

Right now I was waiting for him to pick me up from home, seeing as he finished his studies and had a free evening, we were going to go to our special hiding place and talk, kiss and cuddle.

I looked at myself in the mirror and I only saw a scrawny looking teenage guy with a bunch of wild dark blonde hair, big deep green eyes, a small build and no muscle. I dunno what Felix saw in me, since he was the Sex God as most of the girl's in my pack and in school called him. But I agree with them, he was the Sex God and he obviously knew it.

On this weird body of mine, I was wearing a black V-neck t-shirt, a pair of navy shorts, black vans and my leather bracelet that Felix has gotten me on my birthday which had a small wolf in the middle of it with a sun and a moon on both sides, it was cute.

My phone started to vibrate furiously and I picked it up from my double bed, sliding the arrow on the screen to answer the phone.

''Hello?'' I said, stuttering a bit. He was still making me feel like he did on that day, my stomach was full of butterflies and they were trying to get away through my throat.

''Hey baby, you ready? I'm outside your house now.'' He said, sounding really happy, and him calling me baby made me flush furiously. I swear to god, this guy..

''Y-Yeah, just going to grab my keys and I'll meet you in five seconds.'' I quickly looked around for my keys. Shit, don't tell me Mum took my spare ones.

''Cool, see you in a bit.''

The ride to our place was not quiet, and as always we were blasting some Leaking Nostrils; a funny name but their music was great! It was a Rock band, one of our favourite genres going.

''And sometimes, I look at you and think that maybe you're just a fantasy.'' I sang, smiling and giggling at Felix who was tapping his fingers on the steering wheel and his head was bobbing with the rhythm of the song.

''And sometimes, I look at you and I'm not sure if this is true that you're mine.'' He sang back, making me blush when he pecked my lips quickly, it was a soft peck but it still left tingles running down my face.

''This has been said many times before, the four letter word that I'm feeling right for you. So please, tell me if you're feeling the same about me too.'' we sang together, letting our eyes meet for a split of a second before he had to concentrate on the ride.

He gave me a wide smile and winked in my direction, caressing my knuckles with his thumb as our hands were intertwined. Yep, I was totally in love with this guy.

I love spending time with him, and I could just wish for the time to slow down but it's not like you can have everything, the world doesn't work that way...even if I wished it would. We were sitting on the soft grass, letting the warmth of the sun hit us with every whisper of the hot wind that was kissing our skin.

I could just get used to this, to this scenery that I called my boyfriend. With him everything else stopped having any sort of significance and I loved that feeling, almost as much as I loved being kissed by him and having sweet words being whispered in my ear.

''Cas?'' He asked me, wrapping his arm around my smaller waist, which was cuddled next to his left side as we watched the sun going through the green leaves, casting shadows across our bodies. The tone of his voice was serious but you could hear the nervousness and love illuminating from it.

I nodded, putting my chin on his chest as my small hands were underneath my chin. I smiled at him, looking straight into those beautiful brown orbs that were coated underneath jet black eyelashes; they almost looked like a pair of old curtains hiding the secret to the most precious answer in the whole world.

He shifted a little bit, bringing my lower half of my body to sit on his abdomen, those strong hands brushing my cheek gently as I placed my hands on his chest, sitting up and staring down at him.

''I love you.'' He whispered. It was so quiet that I thought my brain was playing tricks on me. Did I hear this right? I'm sure I did, reading from his serious expression. He only did that when he tried to hide his true feelings, and I know from the way that his hands were shaking slightly, he was nervous for my answer.

You can have a mate, and there is an unimaginable pull that brings two souls together, but only you decide to fall in love with the person, not the pull, but you. His face started to get blurry and I panicked, placing my hands on his cheeks and rubbing my thumbs across his plum lips, this can't be a dream dammit. Goddess, please don't let this be some fucked up nightmare.

''Shhh...calm down, don't panic. I'm here...I'm here, baby.'' he said, sitting up and wrapping his arms around my waist, hugging me as if his life depended on it. Small sobs escaped my mouth and I felt hot droplets run down my cheeks, staining his hair and tanned skin.

''I love you Casper, so fucking much.'' Felix's hot breath fanned my neck, letting our body scents to meld into one. Letting our hearts be one with one another, and nothing else mattered.

Only then did I realise that he's here, with me and this is not a nightmare. He was here and always will be, and he loved me. He loved me. Felix loved me, and I loved him back.

''I love you.'' I said to him, because adding the ''too' part seemed as if I am only saying it because he did.

He was mine, and only mine.