What happened? (Nalu)

The second letter

I wish you knew Lucy just how much you really meant to me. I wish you hadn't left so I could have maybe fixed it but I know it's impossible and your just too good for me.
I'm scared to pick up the next letter. If you keep on reminding me of what we had then I may just cry because I miss it so much.
I push my fear to the side and read the next letter.

Dear Natsu,
Hey it's me again so where was I oh yes the fair. It had only been 2 days since we met and you took me to the fair. We had so much fun we were happy. We went on many rides and you even won my a teddy bear. That teddy bear I still keep by my bed till this day. I thought you took me there to get to know each other but in the end you were there to see your girlfriend. I guess you had it planned cause I saw you guys kissing once again. Remember I told you I wasn't feeling well and you took me home well now you know the reason. Weeks passed by and we still hung out and all but I started to except the fact that you were with Lisanna. I didn't want to hurt Lisanna so I stayed just friends with you. But that day the day you convinced me to go to that party is when everything went wrong. You might not remember but you got drunk and you thought I was Lisanna so you started kissing me. I tried to push you away but it was no use you were too strong. You started touching me. I started crying but you didn't stop. You pulled me into a room and you almost RAPED ME!! If Erza hadn't came in who knows what you would have done.

I remember that night it was the first time I drank. You kept reminding me that I should be careful but I didn't listen.

"Natsu don't drink so much it's bad for you,"you said hold my arm trying to stop me. "Let go of me!"I yelled at you and pulled my hand away and drank some more. That's when I drank so much that ended up making a huge mistake. My brain wasn't functioning correctly I thought you were Lisanna. Of course I remembered everything but I was too embarrassed. I pulled you into a empty room and started ripping off your clothes. You cried telling me to stop saying that i would feel very bad about it all afterwards. Just as I was getting down to your shorts Erza came in and pulled me off of you. After that she hit me on the head so I blacked out. I don't know what happened when was passed out.

You Natsu did the one thing that I had told you so many times was my biggest fear. Being around someone you love but they don't love you back. Why Natsu why didn't you listen to me?

Why was I such a idiot. I should have listen. I hurt her so much.

I wish I could just say and mean it when I say I wish I never met you but I know that's a lie. You may have hurt me but you made me understand something.
Sincerely,
Lucy