What happened? (Nalu)

Third letter

I'm scared I don't want to open the third letter I'm afraid to learn anymore. I know I have to though cause this is Lucy's letters. She moved away because of me so I need to know what I did to make it better. So I open it with shaking hands.

Dear Natsu,
Do you remember the day I went out on a date with Gray l? I tried to forget you but of course you just had to follow me on the date.

I remember that day. I was jealous and at that time I didn't know why. I thought it was just me being protective of my friend.

Gray took me to see a movie. We watched beauty and the beast. We felt so silly watching a kid movie but we were still kids at heart. After the movie he took me to a beautiful restaurant. After eating he took me to see fireworks. It was perfect well almost. In the middle of the fireworks Gray saw you. You guys started a fight. I remember you punched menby accident and that's what stoped the fight. After that Gray took me home. He asked me to be his girlfriend but I couldn't say yes. You know what I actually was looking for you the next day but then I saw you kissing your girlfriend. I thought you liked me. You broke my heart a little that day. Do you think that when we finally got together later on you fixed my heart well you didn't you crushed it even more.

I didn't think you loved me. I kept wishing you would give me a sign that you loved me but I couldn't see that you were the whole time.

I should have just said yes to Gray then I might have gotten over you. I wish had found somebody other then you back then.

Sincerely
Lucy