Devan
I walk up to the group of people in the middle of the field. Laying out in the beginnings of a circle, they are quiet and their eyes empty. I lay down and look up at the cloudy sky wondering just when I won't have to see it anymore, when I will open my eyes and see darkness. These people who lay down around me I have seen them here before, but most of us don't speak I only speak to one, Emily. The girl with curly red hair and green eyes. She lives with her older brother who is also here and her mother. I don't speak to her brother and I have only seen her mother once at school. We met when we were five and have known each other for 7 years now. I guess you could say we are close.
Everyone else who is here I have come across on occasions but never spoken to. We do not need to speak to get to know each other. Some times I think I knew them in a past life or will meet them later in life. We seem to have a silent bond even at our young age that has grown through our times of quietly laying in this meadow by the ocean cliff.
We all are traveling down a path that we wish could slow down or stop. Some people live happily, others may live sad until they reach the end of there path, we just live not knowing what emotion may get us to our ending point. Where that point is. Or if we will even make it.
This world that we live in, ruled by no one but still with rules, destroyed yet still kept together. No one does anything to change things to gain a new growth. I want chaos, I want destruction so that everything is gone, all flaws have disappeared, all false beauty is gone. So the world can be rebuilt into something better, something that people may want to actually live in, where they can choose their own path and rules. Where bonds are grown through silence or much noise.
I want something new, an adventure that I may enjoy, something to take me away from what lies in my own home, lies in my brain. Things that can't be erased no matter how much I try to destroy the demons inside. I want to open my eyes and see darkness. To feel numb, to fade away and be nothing. Will that destruction be the beginnings of something beautiful and new? Only time and my path can tell.
I stand and look down at the people who still lay on the ground staring at the sky. Emily glances at me her green eyes match the grass she lies in. I take in the scent around me, the sight of the people, the presence there bodies give off. Turning around I walk away without a goodbye, I know we will see each other again, its a strong feeling in me that says so. But, for now I must leave them to carry on my own tasks until we meet again.
