Love Is Not A Choice (Under Editing)

Chapter Nine

Hello extraordinary people! Today is the last day of the chapter a day! I'm probably going to do this every time there are another thousand reads. (So the next one would be if we hit 2k reads.) Anyways, I'm always going to update this book on Saturdays, therefore, I can update when school starts. The other book I might update on Sundays or Wednesdays I'm not entirely sure. But there will be times where I will just update on any day when I do that there will still be another chapter on Saturday no matter what. Also, I forgot to mention this takes place a few days after he gets his memory back so. Anyways enjoy the book!

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Y/N P.O.V

-In the dream world-

"They hate you. They're disgusted by you. They wouldn't care if you died."

"Shut up demon!" I yelled at the thing in a red cloak on top of a white horse.

(Oh shout-out to twenty-one pilots I got that idea from their new album.)

"I wouldn't talk back to me. I own you, you're my pretty little slave. I control you." The dark, almost wind sounding voice says.

"That's where your wrong!" I yell back trying to stand my ground.

"No, I'm pretty sure you are." The figure smirks and snaps his fingers. Suddenly the three finger painted marks on each side of my neck starts to hurt.

"You can't run from me, I'm everywhere. In your mind, your emotions, your dreams, your thoughts. The only way to get rid of me, is to get rid of those and you wouldn't want that now, would you? He says and I look down knowing he's right.

"Face it, your my pretty little slave to torment." He starts saying hateful slurs at me again but I keep my head low, till he says one thing.

"You're not a real boy." He says right into my ear. I start tearing up.

"....I know." I say.

"You're a disgrace." He begins to circle me on the white stallion.

"I know" I clench my fists.

"You should just die."

I start running with all my might. He starts laughing, his laughs swarm around me no matter how far I am from Dema it sounds like they're whispering in my ear. I scream, I fall to the ground and cover my ears and scream.

-out of dream world-

I jolt up in bed screaming just like in my nightmare. I look around startled but start calming down once I realized I'm in bed.

"Are you okay?" Namjoon says rubbing my back.

"Y..yeah just had a bad dream, that's all," I say.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" He says sitting me in his lap. I nod. I start telling him about Dema, the horse, the way he laughs, how he marked my neck to control me. He just sits there with his chin on my shoulder, and arms around my waist.

"Maybe you should come out to the others they'll accept you, I promise." He says swaying side to side to soothe me.

"Yeah, maybe," I say while deep in thought.

"But we should get some sleep now, I'm surprised Jin didn't wake up by your scream." He says while laying us down and moving me so he's slightly on top of me in a protective manner. He starts rubbing circles on my back, but I can't seem to fall asleep and neither can him.

"Are you still awake?" He asks.

"Yeah" I answer and he gets up.

"How about we go on a quick walk." He says smiling.