My Ultimate Badass

Chapter Eighteen

~Annabeth's pov~

"I was trying to say, how was your relationship life?" I added with a smirk.

His eyes started widen in horror and I swear I saw a swirl of emotions in his eyes.

"Do you- do you just have to bring that fuck up shit now?" He hissed as he came closer to me. My breath hitched and my heart pounded wildly on my ribcage when he pushed me towards the wall.

"Those were the days, I was damn stupid enough to open my eyes," he whispered, his eyes deep with fury as he hovered over me. I gulped and my eyes twitched again. Damn damn damn.

"I was stupid enough to do that. I realize my mistakes and I was over it already," he hissed as he came dangerously close,I can practically feel his body touch against mine.

"My relationship with those girls were nothing," he continued, not before placing both of his muscular arms by the wall. Shit, Im trapped.

"They were just a game, a stupid game, Annabeth," he whispered my full name as he licked my neck. Shit this is a total shit.

"Austin.. Stop what-"

"I know what I did was wrong but little did you know I used to have a crush on you when I was a little boy," He growled, giving me the most intense stare.

What the actual shit is happening?

"What?" I gasped as I felt my breathing go unsteady.

"I fell in love with you when I was a boy.. Believe me or not, I don't give a shit," he continued, his back facing me.

"And Im not embarrassed to tell you that I loved you so much I was afraid you'll reject me," he sighed.

I just had to screw this up. Im such a stupid girl.

"Everyday after school, ill rush to the playground just to see you playing the swing all by yourself," he continued.

"Im not trying to sound like an idiotic hormonal guy, but everyday I will imagine myself pushing you on that swing, watch you double up with laughter each time you reached higher, admire the way your brown hair shine, the way you smile when you were rewarded a star, the way you frown when your friends pull your hair, the way you cry to yourself each time your friends teased you, I just wished I could be there for you, but I was scared, I was scared you will push me away!" He shouted, causing me to flinch.

His words. His words slammed into my heart painfully. He loved me. Why didn't he tell me? Why did he left me alone to cry each time I thought about him? Does he even know that I used to love him so much, it hurts?

"Do you even know the times when you looked at me and all I could think was both of us being together, when I looked at you all I could feel was you, Anna. You make me nervous, you make me realize my true strength and my true weakness, Annabeth Lawson. I love you so much, so so much, I don't think you even know it," he sighed, letting out a deep breath. His chest go up and down, and Im shocked by his words. Everything in me just curl into a ball, I tried to hide but Im lost. Fucking lost.

I felt something salty when I licked my lips. I turned to the corner mirror and saw an ugly version of me. Ugly tears, streaming down my face, ruining my mascara, my eyes red and gruesome, my cheeks puffy and my nose is not doing a good job in keeping the snot in. Ugly and horrible.

"Then what about those girls-"

"Yes!" he exclaimed and turn around to face me.

"Those girls, I was blinded. Fucking blinded, Annabeth. I was stupid to play with them, so stupid," he hissed.