let go...

Part Two: I Can't Help But To Smile.

I try hard as possibly to slip out of bed without waking him,
he had a rough day at work yesterday so he needs his rest. As i get up and
head towards the door i look back at him, and what i see is the most
beautifullest thing i could ever see in my eyes...him laying there in those
silk white sheets...he looks so peaceful...so at ease...moments likes these make me wonder why i'm deserve to have a man like him

...in reality he's so
out of my league, yet he's here with me, lying in our bed. i put on one of his
white shirts that are so big on me and  I give a simple smile and mouth the
words “i love you” and slip out of the room. I head down the long hallway
that's filled with the early morning sun and i head down the stairs. As my
bare feet touch the cold steps i look along the wall and stare at the collage
of picture frames that stretch the length of the stairs, i look at every frame
so critically. I stare at every amazing moment we had together that was
captured and put on the wall, looking at both our faces seeing the grin that
was from ear to ear on our faces...i pass by my favorite picture of all, it was
the time when we took vacation to bora bora...urrr...technically it was a
business trip for his work but they gave us two days to have to ourselves.

I
remember it like it was yesterday, we was on the beach, hardly anyone
there the water was so clear you could see to the bottom and the sand was
so beautiful like the color of white champagne, as we were walking along
the shore he snuck up from behind me with the camera and said “smile”
and took the shot. i couldn't help to laugh because he does the most
quirkiest things like this and that's one of the many reason why i love him.

As i reach the bottom of the stairs and head to the kitchen and open up the
fridge for some eggs and bacon. i quickly make his favorite. eggs, bacon,
three pancakes and a side of texas toast. As i carefully put everything on
the plate i feel warm hands come up from behind me wrapping around me
and a gentle kiss on the neck followed by a “well hello love...good morning”
i simply smile and reply with the same. We sit down at the dining table to
have our food like always with some small talk in between bites, i tell him
“don't forget that we have dinner reservations with Sam and Matthew after
you get off work, we can't cancel on them again” he politely replies with “ i
get off work early today, so we won't miss it...i promise babe..
But now I gotta go get ready for work.” he gets up and walks to the kitchen to put the dishes
in the sink, passing by me and kissing me on the forehead in the process,
making me smile...like always.