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CollegE liFe

*Being in college helped a little.

I was 2000 miles away from her, and I was distracted by a new city and new people.

There was less to remind me of her. Slowly I started thinking about her less and less, as I made new friends.

Going to an arts school, I was suddenly surrounded by a number of gay students, which was a lifestyle I'd been pretty unaware of back in high school.

I started to question myself and my sexuality. And then, that fall, I watched a video that changed my life.

I was deep in the trenches of Tumblr when a video from a relatively unknown YouTuber called "What does it mean to be a lesbian?" popped up. For some reason, I clicked on it, and then everything clicked for me.

In the video it seems so normal to have this kind of feelings I had since I was a kid ,which I always tried to push to the back of my mind.

I realized that I'd always thought women were beautiful and I admired actresses for more than just being talented on screen, or because I wanted to look like them.

At birthday parties in middle school, I didn't mind when we played spin the bottle and it landed on one of my female friends.

But I never thought about what it meant at the time.

I had never really questioned my sexuality, and it wasn't something people talked about where I grew up.

But as I watched this video about what it meant to like your same gender, suddenly, everything began to fit into place, and for the first time, my feelings toward Diyaa started to make sense !!!!!!