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I still didn't know much about bisexuality at the time. ...

I thought you had to pick a side: lesbian or straight.

The fact that I had feelings for both sides was very frustrating and confusing for me. I didn't know who to talk to, so I reached out to the one person I trusted more than anyone else -

Diya...

I didn't tell her how I felt - just that I missed her and wanted to hear her voice. She picked up on the second ring, and to my joy, seemed happy to hear from me.

"I hate fighting with you," I said. "Can we go back to the way things were?"

"Definitely," she agreed, without missing a beat. And I knew then she had missed me as much as I missed her.

Once I realized I liked her as more than just a friend, I spent nearly every moment trying to figure out if she might have felt the same way about me.
It always seemed like there was more between us than just regular BFF. I had feelings for her on a level that didn't align with what I felt for Megha, or any of my college mates, and I wondered if she felt the same. After all, we were so close. And she never seemed to mind when people thought we were dating.

But maybe it was just a big joke to her.

I worried about her reaction, whether she think I'm disgusting if I told her how I really felt.

I swore that I would keep my feelings to myself, so I wouldn't lose her again. But I couldn't.