i oftentimes hate myself for being jealous of everybody's literacy. if i couldve been a bit more than who i am, i wouldve been able to shout to the world how i am crippled in my bed, how i cant utter a single word when someone asks me if im okay, how i fool myself into thinking that im just fine the way i am, but i cant; not because i dont want to but because i cant. i cant because i dont know how to express myself even in the simplest forms because everytime that i try, all i could think about is how i cant and why i should but i dont know how, where do i begin when i suddenly breakdown by the thought of you?
