Eternal [S.E]

Chapter 1

[ this story picks up after Elena's transition into a vampire in 4x01]

Elena's POV

My heart beats faster, my mind spirals all of my thoughts out of control, and my stomach turns each time I walk past another living person. I feel the tears build up in my eyes as I walk towards long road leading to the Salvatore boarding house. How can I cope with myself, when I'm my worst nightmare. I'm literally drowning in my own killer thoughts.

I feel light headed, and dizzy and I continue to walk. My transition was less than three hours ago, but it seems longer, and I feel like I've been walking forever.

I feel a vibration in my pocket, followed by a siren like ringing sound. I cringe at the noise, has my ringtone always sounded like that? I pick up my phone, and hit answer quickly to stop the noise.

"Hello?" I answer.

"Hey." Stefan's voice booms through the tiny, yet large object. I feel a weight lift off my chest, and a smile appear across my face. I wish he was here, right with me.

Why did I run away from everyone at the farm? The last thing I need is to be alone with my thoughts, and killer intentions.

"Are you coming over?" He sounds excited, but nervous.

I hope theres good news. I need it.

"Yeah" I mumble into my phone.

"Okay. I'm on the roof, come up when you get here. Okay?"

"The roof?" I ask, but he hangs up before he could get my reply.

I didn't bother to question him more about anything, not that I had a choice anyway. But why the roof? I don't know why, but I need to see Stefan. I want too. He's my sanity, and I feel like I'm going insane.

It's less than an hour before the sun rises, and I arrive in front of the boarding house. I can't see Stefan anyway on the roof, I take a quick walk through his dimly light house toward the back of the house.

I look up and see him. He's sitting there so calmly and looks so peaceful. He's staring up at the sky, it's purplish, like it always is before sunrise.

I jump onto the roof, and carefully walk to Stefan trying not slip. It was different jumping up without having to hold onto to Stefan. I always liked the way I had to depend on him, and tightly hold him as he jumps up with me in his arms. I shake myself from my thoughts when I wobble, and nearly slip.

"Hey" his eyes go from dark green to bright green within milliseconds.

And from that my heart aches. I want to cry, because I know Stefan. He will let me. He would let me cry, tell me everything okay, make me believe him, make everything okay. He's amazing like that. He would let it sink it, and be there for me when I realise it. And as

He smiles up at me, and I feel a burning inside. I can't return the smile, I don't have it in me to smile. How can I though? When all I want to do is cry.

But I'm Elena Gilbert, I manage to get through everything and anything, as it seems.

But it nots like that, not to me.

I nod, forgetting he greeted me. I sit closely beside him. We inhale and exhale deeply and loudly at the exact same time.

"I'm sorry." He quickly says.

"I tried, and if there was anything, I mean anything i could've done anything to get it for you, to have stopped it."'he continues. I really appreciate, everything he does for me. The way he cares, makes the butterflies in my stomach rise. Each time. I try smile and I fail.

"I know." I say, and watch his features sadden. "There a bright side though." I say faintly, taking us both surprise.

"I mean, I get to be a friend, a sister forever. And a girlfriend forever." I smile without fail. His eyes soften, as he looks at me.

"If I want." And I think for a second we both chuckled.

"Yeah." He confirms, and my head aches, and heart aches as well.

He can see it in my eyes, that I want... need to cry. His hand raises and he traces my cheek with his thumb, I give into his touch.

"Everything will be okay. One step at a time." He says. His voice more soothing than ever. I actually believe him.

"Yeah" I lock my brown eyes, in his green gaze. He moves towards me, and kisses me. Everything.. All of my needs been taken and put into place. He pulls back before the kiss leads to anything more. He looks out across the trees and towards the nearly lit up sky.

I jump at the sight of a shadow move toward me. The suns rising.

"Stefan.." My voice breaks, and i swallow back growing lump in my throat.

"Its okay. It's okay." He assures me. He digs his hand into his left pocket, and pulls out a daylight ring.

"Bonnie made it.. just in case." he says, softly. He slides the the ring into my finger and with it holds our promises and steps into the next chapter of my life,

Being a vampire.

"There's something else I need to tell you... well ask you." I look up from my ring and into his deep green eyes. His voice sounds more nervous and intimated than before.

"This may not be the right time but, Elena Gilbert, you've made me see the good inside myself, and I really can't thank you enough in the way you deserved to be thanked." My heart drops, his face holds a unreadable expression.

"I love you. I always will. Elena.."
His voice trails off before he could finished. He grabs a hold of my hand and fiddles with my daylight ring.

"I thought it's the right time, and you may not think so but... but I love you and I want to know if you'd do the honour and.." He trailed off again.

His hand reaches for his pocket again, searches for something. He balls his hands into fist before I could get a glimpse of what he was holding. My eyes form tears.

He opens his hand, and lies the perfect ring in his palm, with the most beautiful diamond stud on it, and he's voice strains. His thoughts are jumbled I can tell. I want to scream yes, but I want to hear every magical word from his perfect lips.

Every inch of disgust and pity I felt for myself dissolves within seconds.

"Do the honour and marry me?" He stutterers, then repeats himself without hesitation.

"Yes! Yes... Yes!" I practically scream, pounce at him. My smile is as bright as I could imagine. With everything going on, I can't believe my answer, but I'm happier than ever.

Every kiss, becomes more passionate as he seconds pasts. I see his smile, brighter than ever before shine. His looks so handsome when he smiles, so much more alive. And just when I thought I couldn't take anymore of my dreadful life, I'm here thinking about how to spend the rest of it with him, and the rest of it is a long, long time.