I get it, you didn't know you were taking advantage of me, you just arent used to being told no. I still think of it every night. more of a nightmare but I'm not asleep. I cant sleep. I cant even hug my dad because touching guys give me panic attacks. i never used to have a problem talking to people. but know im self conscious and insecure about myself. I felt good about myself before you came around. I thought I could trust you. your friends believe you, they pity you. But I can tell you like the attention they give you. I wonder if you took advantage over your girlfriend. you were someone I considered a friend. you made my friends leave, you made my boyfriend leave. you made my family pity me. they wont even let me walk down the street. they leave me trapped with my thoughts. thoughts of cutting or ending my life. you would probably smile if I killed myself. you make me feel like garbage. but i cant blame you. it was my fault. I kissed you back. but that didn't mean I wanted sex. I guess you misread no and stop for a plead to continue.
