Dear Family,

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Hi do you remember me the little girl with broken wings the little girl who lost her dreams. I'm still that little girl only this time I'm still broken but I wonder what life means? Is this some sick joke that date decided to play on me? I guess you expect me to forget about everything that happened in the last right? I'm guessing what your family before you always said. I'm Tired I'm Tired of acting fine I'm tired of pretending that everything is okay. The truth is I still have my battle wounds and battle scars the marks I left on my own skin because you made me feel like I was nothing. You made me feel like nobody could ever want me and I still believe that sometimes. The scars on my skin will never go away I thought I was just numbing my pain but in reality, I was just creating so much more pain for myself. I guess you don't care enough to know that I almost ended that pain several times but everytime I wanted to cut just a little deeper or maybe down that whole bottle of pills something would stop me. Something made me realize that if I did that then you had truly won against me. I was not EVER going to give you the satisfaction of winning against me ever again I promised myself to never let anybody else close to me because the people who were supposed to help me from the pain actually caused me the worst pain. All I ever tried to be was the perfect daughter when I wasn't happy I put a fake smile on my face just to see you happy but then I realized that it didn't matter anymore I decided to give up. I wanted to end my life so badly either way you or me one had to go and now that I'm home I'm finally free I'm happy for once so I guess when it truly comes down to it thank you. Thank you for showing me the kind of person to be and the kind of person not to be. I forgive you for everything my anger is gone and I'm finally at peace I hope your life is well and I hope you know I still love you.

Sincerly your dearest daughter,
Me

P.S. I forgot to tell you to make sure you take care of yourselves and please don't worry about me anymore I'm fine and I'm in a better place live your life freely now.

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