i dont know how i feel //Anthony trujillo

chapter 36

I woke up at 6:00 feeling scared I haven't seen jake ,erika or sunny since I told them last night and I dont want Anthony to try talk to me about it 

I get up and grab my clothes and then head into my bathroom I brush my hair and teeth I then put my hair up into a pony tail 

I then get changed 

I wore a yeezy jumper which made me look like I had more weight on me I slipped on some yeezy's and put some mascara on 

I then headed straight down the stairs after putting on a erika costell cap 

erika and jake were both in the kitchen 

Kamryn: morning 

they both looked exhausted 

erika: morning how you feeling today 

Kamryn: I dont know

jake: can I talk to you 

Kamryn: now

jake: it doesnt have to be now 

Kamryn: id rather do it now 

jake: ok lets go down by the pool 

Kamryn: ok 

me and jake walked down to the pool in silence I knew this was going to happen I knew if Anthony didnt talk to me about it jake would 

I sat down next to jake 

jake: I know you dont want to talk about it and I understand it I just want to tell you not to workout 

Kamryn: it helps me a lot jake 

jake: it helps your mind Kamryn not you 

Kamryn: when I workout I have a little snack if I dont workout then I wont want anything 

jake: Kamryn you having that little snack isn't helping your body you need to eat more then a little snack 

Kamryn: I know that jake it hurts me a lot to see all of you guys like this moping around because I could die 

jake flinched 

jake: dont say it like that Kamryn 

Kamryn: I'm sorry jake I dont want to talk about it anymore 

I began running into the house I ran into the kitchen with jake calling my name 

chad , erika , Anthony , ari , Justin , Armani were all in the kitchen 

jake: Kamryn can we please finish our conversation 

Kamryn: why 

jake: because I want you to understand that its not like the way you said it was

Kamryn: it is jake your just going to have deal with the fact that if I dont get better I'm going to die 

tears escaped my eyes I then carried on walking out and upstairs I then went to the roof and sat down