My friends are getting annoyed
I cant help it
Every time I close my eyes I see him
The boy who promised me love
He is long gone
But everything around me reminds me of him
I was so stupid to carve our initials into the concrete
Every time I go outside now
There he is
The thoughts of who we use to be
How in love I was
Now even when we are apart
I keep in touch with people close to you
Just so I know you're okay
It makes me an idiot
Because I know deep down you never loved me
And because you never did you are finally free and overjoyed
Everyone keeps telling me that you really did
That it just didn't work in the end
But I know the truth
You never did
If you did
I would have gotten something for my birthday from you
I wouldn't of had to beg for you to answer at a normal time
I know all my friends try to make me feel better
I just wish they would stop trying
I know the truth and them constantly trying to lie is point less
I know
god I know that no one will love me
All I am is a ball of depression anxiety and over thinking
I always thought that
Looking in the mirror I just knew
But he
He was the icing on the cake
The thing that finally made me see
No one will love me
So why try
"you thought you were loved then when you figured out he didn't were you actually surprised Jade how can someone even possibly love someone so worthless.
So I know that it was a fake love
