When sleep is non existent
When all I can think about is all the pain I caused
When all I can think is how maybe they would have been alright
When all I do is read and write
When all I do is barley survive
When you know the deserve better
When you try to turn
When you try to not let the first year slip
For you have been told crying is weak
When you where told that you have to fight
When you have fought your last fight
And you can't tell who won
When you just sit there and think
When did this happen
When you think os the sweet five year old you use to be
When your family called you the apple of there eye
When you made others smile
When you stop smiling yourself
When your smile falls as soon as the turn
When they don't notice
When you know to keep your mouth shut
When the fight is done
When you sit and stare
When you finally say I'll let fate decide
