Seriously in over my head

Confusions & confessions

Harry's P.O.V.

"So do you know where Louis actually went?"

"Actually..... no clue I'm hoping home but.... who knows. "

"Well did Liam have a separate home?"

"You didn't know?"

"Didn't know what?" I ask raising an eyebrow. Somehow I know I didn't know.

"He lived with Niall. "

"What do you mean lived with Niall?"

"Well.... I guess right before Christmas he met Liam. They hit it off and became such an idem you know? and then when he turned 18 Niall moved in with him at his place. They've been living together ever since. "

"No no no no that's wrong cuz he's living with his mum Maura. " Zee sighs

"Harry...... Maura...... Maura's dead. " I gasp and my mouth is hanging on the floor. So much goddamn death it's to much for me!

"What do you mean..... d-dead?"

"Well I guess...... shortly after graduation.... she killed herself from depression figured nobody needed her and she knew he was to going to go through with school. "

"But he was willing to go for her. "

"I know but he figured after her death.... he would give up cuz it would remind him of her to much. He was going to quit after this last semester but......" he trails off knowing Niall's end result.

"Yeah..... I can't believe it..... why didn't he tell me?"

"Because he told his precious Liam everything. "

"Fuck and he was going to have me approve of him well I certainly do not! for once Niall choose a douche. "

"You said that right. It just...... its not fair I feel like I knew Niall since that's all Liam ever talked about only good things though. " I nod as we approach a nice home.

"Okay.... well this is it. "

"So whose home did we go to earlier?"

"Oh that was Liam's. " I nod no wonder his place was a disaster.

"Oh. " Is all I say

"Well I'm going to call Louis make yourself comfy this is your new home after all. Guess you could go pick an empty room. There should be 4 to choose from. " I nod and he nods back walking towards the stairs. I sniffle and grab the jacket Niall was wearing tonight and head upstairs grasping it between my hands as they shake and find the first open door and make sure there's no cloths in here or anything and slam on to the bed. I curl up tucking my feet into my chest cradling his jacket shaking and crying wishing it was me rather him after all...... I am the monster here.

Zayn's P.O.V. (finally!)

"Well I'm going to call Louis make yourself comfy this is your new home after all. Guess you could go pick an empty room. There should be 4 to choose from. " I say and walk up the stairs towards the last room on the far right almost invisible and up to the secret balcony me and Lou share and grab a cigarette from my pack and my lighter and inhale as my lips tremble and my heart rate begins to soften as the poison relaxes me. I want to give up smoking I do...... but it's to hard especially now on what just happened I just witnessed Harry's family get slaughtered for no reason whatsoever and my best friend showed his true colors let me tell you it wasn't the rainbow it was hell. I shake my head and dial Louis number hoping he'll pick up.

"Uh zee what's up darling?"

'What's up darling? that's what you have to say to me? how about you tell me where the hell you are?"