Lacuna • Book 2 of Change [Ricci Rivero]

fourteen.

may kumakatok sa pintuan ko habang umiiyak ako sa loob ng kwarto ko habang kasama ko si solana na naglalaro sa tabihan ng kama.

"Solana? Open the door for me? Baka si Kuya mo yan." utos ko and i got out of my hiding place, sa loob ng comforter ko.

niluwa ng pintuan si Ricci na may dala dalang ice cream. he was wearing sweatpants and a thick sweatshirt. he looks comfortable..... and is cuddly. "alex, ice cream?" alok niya sakin. tinitigan ko lang siya. Solana grabbed it for me instead and said bye as she forcefully shuts the door close.

mas lalo akong naiyak. hindi ko alam? bakit ang sakit parin? bakit umiiyak parin ako?

"ate, your ice cream..." bigay niya sakin. it has a note written on it saying: 'i can always wait for you kasi i honestly don't want anyone else but you. im sorry for being selfish rather than valuing your happiness. for everything, im sorry. really sorry. feel better. -r'.

"are y-you okay? why are you crying? should i make tawag kuya donny?" tanong niya sakin and cupped my cheeks as i cried and bawled my eyes even more.

mas lalo nanaman akong natorn sa kung anong dapat gawin but shouldn't i let myself feel my pain and become vulnerable for once.

"ateee, tell me, pleeeeaseee?"

"i miss him, solana." alam kong hindi niya naiintindihan to but i'd rather tell solana than tell donny. i don't know, kids make me feel better kahit di nila nagegets. "i miss him so much, talo nanaman ako oh. sana pag totoong mahal ko na siya ulit, mahal niya parin ako."

"why not now na, ate? he's there na sa other room eh, bakit di mo itell sa kanya?"

"don't let your kuya know that i told you this word." i made her pinky promise with me and she agreed. "gago si kuya ricci mo eh. gago na 'ko noon eh, malay ko bang mas gago pala siya." sabi ko. i cried more and more and more saka kumain ng ice cream na bigay ni Ricci.

pang landas sa mga sugat.
pampahilom ng mga sugat.
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