Devastation
He feelt as if he had devastated
Everyone
Him self
His friends
Felix
He sits next to hyunjin who taps his leg againts the tile floor staring at a boy across the room, he bits at his bottom lip and his hands run threw his hair some what nervous.
Jisung the younger confused boy lowers down his fry and taps the older shoulder with his greasy hand cleaning them off on the olders uniform.
"Are you okay?"
He says his head tilting a bit.
"Ya, you seem out of if"
Chan adds on, changbin and felix nodding aswell.
"I uh.."
He stops running his hand threw his hair and finally shifts his vision from the red head boy to his small group of friends, his hands shake and his foot doesnt stop tapping, infact it seems as it starts to rapidly tap away.
"I.. theirs this guy ive been.. noticing"
He mumbles his eyes know glued to his
T
apping foot his face heats up.
"I .. i trust you guys... a-and im.. i-i think hes cute."
All three boys look at hyunjin, and for some reason jisung scared, he doesnt know why though, hes not the one who just admitted that he was into a dude, hes not the one whos basiclly coming out as a not so straigh noodle.
But hes scared.
He feels a bit expossed?
He feels as if their staring at him as if they figured him out and know are scoffing.
He cant hear anything as his thoughts scream at him, becouse how the hell is he so confident about it how can he say it so easily to them, its not normal.
People shouldn't think that as normal.
Thats what hes been told.
He finally snaps out of the trance.
"Its fine hyunjin its who you ar-"
He cuts of chans words with his own thoughts about him self.
Becouse he supports hyunjun for fuck sakes hyunjin could go flirt with the redhead and it would probobly be the cutes thing ever, but he can't, he him self cant be different becouse he been trying so hard to be like then. A normal teen boy
"Its wrong a boy shouldnt like a boy, i-its nasty a-and wrong is N-not right?"
He looks up to see their faces, chans disappointed as well as changbin and hyunjin.
Hyunjin looks down right hurt at least his eyes scream it with the tears that start to form, but his actions say other wise as he slams the table and grabs his tray standing up and throwing it away ad he crys and walks out the cafeteria.
He sees as the red head boy hyunjin was looking at stand up from a far and basiclly runs after hyunjin.
He turns back to see the boys,
Chan looks as if hes screaming his mouth moves rapidly as changbin glears ay him but all he could hear was the loud ringing.
He then turns to face felix..
The said boy looks at him tear eyed
As he holds his tray tightly, he sees felix heart shape lips that always then to fascinate him, word out.
"Leave"
And soon enough
He snaps back into realty
Hands shaking, checks flushing red, eyes teary and he hears felix deep voice scream at him.
"Leave han, DAMN IT LEAVE"
He doesnt fight back, instead he grabs his stuff and quickly leaves the table.
