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This part will just be about some of my life problems sooo *TRIGGER WARNING*
As I stare down at the scale for the third time that day I know I'm unhealthy.
My body is still repelling against that chocolate ben made me eat. I walk over to the toilet and begin to gag myself then stop. I look around the bathroom poke around in the drawers and find a razor I stare at myself in the reflection..at my chubby cheeks,fat nose,and disgusting teeth. I slowly bring the blade to my wrists..."wait..no!" I mumble "people could see that" so I roll up my pant leg and cut all over my thigh. It starts bleeding and I panic so I text ben. That always calms me down..but I still feel like crap. (Not going to show the texts they are private)
(Later that night)
Im still frickin bleeding!
Ack I'm questioning my sexuality now.......WAIT I KNOW I KNOW IM OMNI😊👏👏👏👏👏 yayyyyy still want to die tho. I honestly don't know what to do with my life.
I look like a Pig and I feel like a pig yet ben says I'm skinny. I don't understanddddddd! I WANT to be skinny! But I'm not and I don't know what to do. I've already tried not eating but ben doesn't like it. He won't let me go on a diet either. Ackkk!
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Sorry this one was sooo uhh...well colourful I promise it'll get uhhh happier.
