The New Guy - Bradley simpson/connor ball fanfic

Chapter 10 - School

Monday again. Great, note the sacrasm. Oh but wait its even worse becuase im going to see brad which means we'll have to talk about what happened last night.

I haven't spoken to connor latley either. He texted me that he needed to talk but i ignored it, im not going to be made a fool of anymore.

I arrive at school, late.as usual and just in time for my first lesson. I walk into religious education but oh great brads in this lesson.

I sit down at the back, brads already sitting at the front but when he sees me he gets up and moves to sit next to me.

Why brad? I mean doesnt he get that i dont want to speak or talk to him right now.

We sit in silence. well this is awkward.

"em, hey so you alright?"

what a stupid question izzy well done.

He chuckles and takes a deep breath, "look we need to talk"

oh no, cant we just forget about it.

"yeh i know"

"firstly, im sorry i kissed you yesterday, it was a mistake...well not a mistake but..its not becuase i didnt want to kiss you..becuase i did...." he stutters.

"oh this is coming out wrong, i just mean i didnt mean to rush things, i mean we barely know each other and i have already made a bad impression, i should have taken things a bit slower but i cudnt help myself, when im around you izzy i am immediately happy and excited even when were not speaking, i just wanted to let you know that so i kissed you..but you probably hate me now" He puts his head.

How on earth am i going to answer this. I guess i should explain abouy my past so he knows why i did what i did.

"er.. well dont be sorry about the kiss.. im just Happy that you actually wanted to kiss me, you see i..well ive only had one boyfriend before and he lets just say he used me and now i just find it hard to trust people and belive that peoples feeling are true, because ive been lied to too many times, so that is why i ran away yesterday becuase i didnt belive that you liked me, im sorry" I explain. I looked down, i reallu did sound stupid.

He looks up and smiles. "well im glad you told me, im sorry that youve had a rough time with boys in the past but trust me izzy, were not all like that, you know what? this makes me so angry that someone would use you when infact they should realise they are lucky to have you, but dont worry you it just proves that you are better than them"

Aaah hes so sweet.

"ah thanks, and by the way i like you two brad"

Brad lifts his head up and shows me a big grin on his face.

"so...does this mean we can date?" He asks hopefully.

"well, can we just take it slow for a bit please, like can we just be friends and get to know each other more, i know its lame...you can go find another girl whos not as....weird as i am and id be fine with it, i mean id understand"

"sure we can take it slow, at least ill still see and be with you, and dont be silly your not weird, some guy has fucked you up and ruined your trust in men, thats understandable, but listen izzy, im going to be the one to gain your trust back in men and ill show you were not all bad" He winks.

God that wink melts me everytime.

"can i still hug you?" Brad questions

Awh he seems to really....care? Oh why i cant i just trust him, it would be a whole lot easier, me and my stupid trust issues.

But i am certainly not going to miss a brad hig for anything.

"yeah of cource you can" I smile at him reassuringly

He slowly brings his arms around me waiste and i lift my arms around his neck.

"plus theres not another girl i want to be with.. its only you" He wispers to himself. I dont know wether i was ment to hear that.

We are still sitting on our chairs so the hug looks pretty strange but i dont care i like it.

We stay hugging for what seems lime hours until out R.E teacher comes striding through the door, makes us reluctantly pull apart. Oh why couldnt we just stay like this forever.

An hour of boring lesson passes, with me an brad often looking up at each other other and smiling, which ends in me blushing a hot shade of pink. lavely..not!

We talk mainly about the lesson and brad making jokes. There mainly jokes that are so unfunny you just have to laugh at how pathetic they are. I like the fact that brad can basically make me laugh just by being himself.

But then i think..im not funny at all, im not interesting and i never have anything exciting to talk about, i just hope he doesnt get bored of me..

but i think he will....everyone does eventually. I quess i should just enjoy the time i have with him now then.

The bell goes and brad explains that he has maths, but i have history...with connor!

Oh no another awkward lesson, i wish i could just go off with brad becuase weve sorted everything out.

But becuase i am the unluckiest person ever, i have to spend the lesson with connor.

Ok just ignor him, were only friends so i cant be jelous that he kissed another girl. No.

Ok, so i can be a little pissed that he left me for a group of sluts at bowling but that is it.

I dont really know why i am anrgy with him, i just am, i guess it is just becuase it was supposed to be us two but he clearly forgot about me as soon as a better offer came to him.

Ugh i bet he just wanted me to hang out with him becuase there was no one better, oh i hope thats not true but....

Izzy snap out of it, stop thinking badly about connor and just go sort it out.

Ok here goes....

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