That Dysphoric Person Behind the Screen

Chorus

   In Chorus class we were told to sing a song of our choice, one by one. All the girls walked up to the front of the classroom and sang beautifully..The one I liked the most was Robin's..Her voice is angelic and..just amazing, overall..
  Finally, it was my turn. I was very reluctant and told the instructor that I didn't have enough confidence to do it in front of everyone..Especially her.
  He told me I could get 50% by singing to him privately, or I could pass this semester by doing it in front of everyone..I can't be seen with a bad grade, my reputation of a prodigy student would plummet. So, I chose to sing in front of everyone and pass the semester. I sang idontwannabeyouanymore by Billie Eilish, for its a beautiful song and my favourites by her.
   If teardrops could be bottled, there'd be swimming pools filled by models, told that tight dress is what makes you, a whore. If 'I love you' was a promise, would you break it if you're honest? Tell the mirror what you know she's heard before, I don't wanna be you..Anymore.
   Everyone clapped, including Robin. The instructor gave me an A and recommended me to sing in the Special Events Choir he's planning on making next week. He recommends any highly skilled singers in his classes. I don't know if I should accept or not,
and try out. Robin even pulled me aside to say that she would die to get in there, second year of Chorus and shes never gotten recommended. Especially with her voice. She said I should definitely try out, she thought my voice was angelic..I tried to reverse that to her, but I stuttered too much and could barely get the words out..
  After class, I stayed to talk to my instructor on recommending Robin, he told me that he would pull her out of lunch for another chance at getting recommended.
I sure hope that if I accept, she's there with me.