That Dysphoric Person Behind the Screen

Happy Birthday.

It's Isaac's birthday, and what better way to celebrate it by having family over...Yep, family. You know, the more disappointed energy in the air, the merrier.
Well anyway, Isaac's turning 18 so he's now old enough to run a Pride Activist Group where we live. I'm hoping he actually makes it..
I keep getting sidetracked...Well as we all sat down by the table and ate pizza, I got my rush of anxiety and paranoia. Like I've experienced at the Library. But this time, everyone was staring at me. I just felt the hatred in their eyes and it made me so uncomfortable to sit in their presence..
I finished my plate and just got up and walked away. I could tell they were all staring at me as I left the room...I walked up one step before my mom told me "Liz, stay down here. We're gonna open presents in a bit," I sighed and turned back to sit on the couch. I was on my phone looking at new books to order, when I could hear my family whispering. I couldn't make out what they were saying but I just knew they were whispering. My brother was also at the table, I could tell he looked uncomfortable, pacing his eyes around the room. My dad occasionally stared at him and would get close to my mom to whisper to her.
   Eventually, we began presents. He got a $10 itunes card and an envelope with a rainbow coloured birthday card in it. "Oh..thanks. It's a rainbow" He thanked our grandma before she said "Oh it's nothing, I know how much you like those colours!" I could see the crushing expression on his face after she said that...
  Then came the time to sing 'Happy Birthday' and eat donuts that Isaac wanted. As everyone gathered around the table and sang, I was in the background lip singing since I knew my dad would yell at me for not singing along.
  This wasn't my birthday, but I know it was terrible and extremely uncomfortable...