Jesse underhill-Bestfriend

The bump

After a week of me and Jesse being so called "Bestfriends", we've told each other our deepest darkest secrets!  Jesse was always kissing up on me and trying to get in my pants, and he did.  One thing I realized is that, we weren't using protection.  I never felt anything so that's good.  One day me and Jesse met up.  He seemed down a little and didn't want to talk much.  I asked him what's wrong.  What he told me, was....heartbreaking.  "Jesse, what's wrong boo?" I asked him.  He looked at me, "We can't be 'Friends' anymore like that." He told me. I looked at him. "Why?!" I asked.  "I have a girlfriend" he told me looking down.  I stood there...quiet. I didn't know what to say or how to react.  I looked down and tears started running down my face.  The truth was that I loved him, more then bestfriends.  He wouldn't know though.  "Get out." I said. He looked at me, "Wha-" I interrupted and yelled, "GET OUT!". He grabbed his stuff and left.  I threw myself on the sofa and started drowning in my tears.  I look at the kitchen so many times.  *Thinks in head: WHY DID I FUCKING MEET HIM?! WHY DO I LOVE HIM?!*. I cried like if I was being beat up by a bing of people.  I got up and went to the kitchen...grabbed a knife, and held it to my arm.  I can't do this, I thought to myself. *Puts knife away*.  I was so scared and heart broken.  I put on something and went to someone's house.  I didn't know wether or not to go in....I didn't know what I was doing.  I left back home and decided to go to sleep.

(TO BE CONTINUED)