Please Come Back... | TordEdd

The Aftermath

I don't know the artist of this drawing. If you know it please tell me so I can credit them. Trigger warning for self-harm.

3rd Person POV:

It's been several months since Tord had left. 5, to be exact. And Edd's mental health has only gotten worse. He's almost completely stopped taking care of himself and he now sports a defeated tone overall. Tom and Matt have stopped bothering him to rather hang out by themselves because they knew that Edd wouldn't enjoy doing fun things anymore and there was a chance that he'd even snap at them. 

Piles of months old cola cans scatter across the floor of Edd's apartment, despite him not drinking cola for the past couple of months because he ran out and didn't have the energy or motivation to go out and buy more. His computer has barely been touched. Every time Edd sat down and tried to draw something, he'd either just stare blankly at the screen before giving up or ended up drawing something he hated and deleted the whole thing. He was miserable.

He's started sleeping way less than what was healthy. He'd stay up staring at the ceiling while the tv played as white noise in the background or would scroll through his phone for hours. Most nights he stayed up till 6 in the morning, when his body usually shut off, but then he forced himself to be awake only a couple of hours later. Though somedays, usually once a week, his body had to rest, resulting in him sleeping almost the entire day.

He's also picked up dangerous coping habits. Whenever he'd need to blow off steam or whenever he was feeling particularly awful, he'd self-harm on his legs or scratch up his arms. He didn't like the fact that he did this, but he didn't know what else to do and now it was a habit. It was also another reason why Edd almost refused to see anybody. He didn't want to risk them finding out. 

And much to Edd's vanquish, he still couldn't drop his feelings for Tord. Only now he's learned how to push them down deep, with a layer of betrayal and hatred at the top. The whole incident seemed like a familiar but vague memory that relayed over and over in his head. It made him upset, of course, even if it happened what felt like to Tom and Matt a decade ago. Only this time, because the feelings and event weren't as fresh, Edd would feel a big storm of bitterness and hopelessness instead of the strong sadness and regret he used to feel. He just couldn't forget how disappointed he felt. He waited all of that time, begging for him to come back. He genuinely thought that things were going to get better and he could live in peace again. He was wrong. Tord was a traitor. A big fat traitor that he just had to fall in love with.

There was a knock on Edd's door.

"Edd! It's Tom... We need to talk. I'm coming in!" Edd's entire body tensed up. He was only in some shorts and a t-shirt, revealing all of his scars. Now filled with adrenaline, Edd rushed to grab his hoodie and some pants. He was just out of bed before it was too late.

"EDD?!" Tom and Edd locked eyes. Tom was shocked and devastated, while Edd could only stand there and look and Tom with pleading eyes. Edd could feel tears forming in the corners of his eyes.

"Tom..."

"Why, Edd? Why would you do this?"

Edd tried to answer but he was too choked up. The words just wouldn't come out. Cold tears fell down his flushed face. Still standing there, paralyzed, he began to sob. Tom immediately reached out to hug him, surprised when he immediately hugged him back. The two hugged for a few moments, Edd crying into Tom's shoulder. Then Edd finally broke up the hug.

He looked at Tom closely. Was he...blushing? Probably just flushed like I am. Whatever it was, Edd brushed it off.

"So," Edd began, his voice still weak from crying. "What do you need to talk about." Tom looked at him seriously. 

"You know what we need to talk about, Edd." Edd sighed.

"Okay, I know, I know. I haven't been doing the best lately." Tom rolled his "eyes."

"No offense, Edd, but this place looks like a dump. And it smells like you haven't taken a shower in an entire year." Edd looked away, his eyes full of shame. Tom's tone softened. "I care about you, Edd...a lot, actually. I've been worried sick about you, you know?" 

Edd shot Tom another look. Okay, he definitely is blushing. Oh god, what am I supposed to do now? If Edd had to deal with romance ever again, it would probably kill him. And he didn't even like Tom like that anyway.

"I'm sorry that I've been this way, Tom. Things just haven't been the same... And I care about you, too..." Edd awkwardly added in the last part. It managed to get a smile out of Tom, though.

"Hey, I'll help clean things up for you. Go take a nice shower, I'll take care of it."

"Oh... Thanks, Tom."

This was weird. Tom is pretty nice to me, but he isn't that nice. He's probably doing it out of pity. Feeling slightly weirded out, Edd got in the shower. The entire time he was in there, he couldn't stop thinking about what he was supposed to do with Tom.

Sorry this chapter was shorter ;^;

Things are gonna get real interesting next chapter *evil laughter* Haha...poor Tom...well, poor everyone, really...okay I'm saying too much I'll be quiet now