Delicate | Bozamien (Smosh AU)

5: Only because you're here.

Damien.

It's Friday, we have to make video after video today to make up for the time the party takes away.

Currently, the only people not in a video right now is me, Ericka, Mari, Courtney, Noah, Olivia, and Joven.

Ericka has been very distant today. She not like she usually is, and I'm very worried.

I should've just asked her out on a date, I was just too scared of the answer. Being rejected by someone you really love is heartbreaking, and I don't want that to happen.

Also, if anyone finds out, they would tell Ian, and we could lose our jobs.

This shouldn't be so complicated.

Ericka.

I think my depression is coming back slowly.

The mix between my ex-boyfriend possibly cheating on me AND Damien being so fucking confusing and weird has made me pretty sad.

It's killing me that I don't know what he was gonna say yesterday...I just wish I had the confidence to ask him on a date myself.

I've been keeping my distance from him, hoping he would come to me his self and make me feel better, but he hasn't done that.

But I shouldn't be expecting that either.

I don't think I'm gonna go to that stupid party, I'm pretty sure Damien will be fine without me being there anyway.

....

Work is over, I'm back in my apartment.

My bedroom is pitch black, and I'm laying on my back, staring at the ceiling in complete silence. This is mostly what I did before I moved to LA.

I'm pretty sure the party has started by now, and they're all having fun without me...but it's fine. None of them care about me anymore, but it's okay.

Just as I thought that, my phone lights up my nightstand in the black.

I flipped over and picked it up, and Damien texted me. I almost ignored it, but I decided not to.

Hey, where are you?
at home.
Really? Why didn't you come?
i'm just not feeling too happy today.
That's a bummer, this party's pretty boring without you.
you really want me to be there?
Of course! And who knows, maybe it will make you feel better?
ugh, fine. i'll be there in a few.

As long as he wants me there, I'll go.

Just to act like I actually care about this, I changed into a red crop top. That's as 'festive' as I'm gonna get tonight.

I had to Uber to the office because I STILL don't have a car. At some point I will have to buy one, but I procrastinate a lot.

....

I walked in, and seeing all the people that were here gave me so much anxiety.

I started to wander around and look for Damien, I couldn't find him anywhere. Just as I was about to give up, I got a text from him.

Are you here?
yeah, i'm looking for you.
Oh, it was too crowded in there for me, I'm standing outside.
oh, okay.
Come out here, you can meet me in the back.

I pushed past a group of people that were talking and walked out the door.

I turned the corner and there he was, his back against the building. He didn't see me until I walked up to him.