Halo

Chapter 1- How to begin

I can't do this anymore. I won't. I won't wake up another day with the burning desire to crawl into the black abyss of nothing. Please, tell me this is over. As I take a deep breath, I let my head hit the pillow, allowing myself to drift into the comforting feeling of numbness.

My phone's deafening alarm goes off, setting my brain into a panic. The alarm tone may be called "glittering butterflies", but honestly, it is anything BUT glittering butterflies. it sould be called "broken fire alarm".  Waking up in the morning is disappointing, but I figure I might as well stay in this repetitive notion until it's over. Pulling the silky blanket off my carmel skin, I weakly sit up, looking down at the sun-soaked wood floors. My feet barely touch the frigid ground, but on this early November morning in St. Louis, Missouri, I can tell it is going to be much colder when I brace the outside world.

Getting up is always an excruciating pain because it forces me to think about the day ahead. I somberly head into my closet,  and pick off my usual outfit: Dark wash blue jeans, a white t-shirt, and my favorite Superman hoodie. Most girls spend 4 hours to get ready, but what's the point if you've got no one to impress?

Walking into my personal bathroom, and look at my reflection. At first, I see what I always see. My straight, blonde hair with ebony dip-dyed ends, my obsidian eyes, and my milky, brown skin. As I stare at the girl in the mirror, she becomes a stranger. A stranger that I once knew. The girl with the broken smile and faded memories.  I blink myself back to reality and quickly brush my hair into a presentable fashion. Before walking downstairs,  I grab my favorite black Converse,  my ordinary white backpack covered in music pins, and my phone. 87% charged.  Great.

As usually,

it's just me today. My dad died when I was 10, and it still haunts me. My mom however, is a big astronomy professor at NASA, so I spend most of my life alone. Come to think of it, I haven't seen her in a couple weeks.. maybe I'd stop by to see her later. Not that she'd actually have time. I snatch my keys from off the kitchen countertop and prepare for the wintery air. As soon as I open the door, I'm greeted by the overwhelming sensation of pure freedom. The beautiful, frosty wind whirls around me until I reach my small, red 1998 Volkswagen Passat. Nothing fancy. Just enough to get me from place to place. The drive to my school,  Gateway High, is about 15 minutes of dead silence. I'm new to this neighborhood. This whole COUNTRY for that matter. 4 months is NOT enough to get used to a different life.

I carefully park my car into the student parking lot, and grab my book bag. Stepping out of the car, my first thought is "Please, just until I get to the stairs.." Head down, I swiftly make a bee line to the glass front doors of the school. Just as I'm about there, I hear the chatter start up like a racecar engine. "Guys look, there goes LilyAnna! Stay back the disease might be contagious!" Just once, I'd like to be able to get to school without someone pointing at me like a zoo animal..

In case you didn't hear Kaydra, the Kim Kardashian of the school, I have a disease.. They're classified as mental disorders,  but everyone does everything they can to make me feel like a freak. I have Mood Disorder and Anxiety Disorder. Anything that most people say is depression or bipolar disorder, my doctors tell me it's my mood disorder. Ughhhh.

Hurrying up the snow dappled stairs, I rush inside, my long blonde hair falling in my face. "Locker, locker, locker," I think. I clear my head and remember the way, mapping out the least trafficked route. Rushing up to the Junior's floor, I make a sharp left turn and feel an indescribable pain in my right left temple. I wince as I try to get up, pressing on my throbbing head. Standing almost feels effortless, until I look up and see the darkest eyes that twinkle like the midnight stars. He's definitely somewhere around 6 feet and as I gasp for breath, he smiles the sweetest smile to reveal perfect teeth and dimples. Before I can say a word, I'm ripped away by the school bell and I watch as the perfect stranger walks down the hall. With one glance over his shoulder,  only one word comes to mind.

Him.

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