Dealing with her broken heart

You Deserve Better

LEO'S POV:

I have spent many nights feeling disappointed at the way people treat me . My ex-girlfriend whom i thought would always be there for me had broken up with me because i stopped giving her as much attention as i was preparing for an examination. She hurt me but i would never regret dating her ; She is extremely stunning , well educated and very independent. Many times i was drowning in my thoughts wondering why i haven't given up but then i thought of her and i was given another reason to live , A beautiful reason.Lena made me feel hurt at times but she would always make me feel needed after that.Not only was Lena beautiful but she was also magnanimous, she loved to help others in need and often she would brighten most of my days .With her i felt different and i have not been able to describe that feeling but i know that it is a feeling i do not want to lose , but how do i mend her broken heart when mine is broken too? i asked myself

How do I show her that i care for her when i cannot even look her in the eyes without feeling nervous?

How do i prove to her that I am different ?

How do i make her believe that i need her?

If she rejects me , who will i turn to when nobody else can make me feel happy?

She said that she could not be with me because of her religion but as my dad always told me:

If you love her there isn't anything that is too hard for you to do for her

So i plan to cherish her, guard her heart,build a family with her , be a christian for her but only if she will let me and only if i can explain this all to her.

And if she hurts me i will always remember that sometimes the ones we love the most cause us a lot of pain, after all love hurts.

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LENA'S POV:

After realizing that my religion is more important than any guy , i made a promise to myself that i would not speak to Leo anymore because when he is around me i swear i cannot breathe .

His hugs make make me fall head over heels for him continuously, When he stares at me i feel vulnerable but on the outside i act indifferent hmm I will probably talk to Zoe all the time so he has no time to speak to me .

What i am doing is supposed to be the best choice so why am i feeling as though i am making a huge mistake?

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LEO'S POV:

Hey you , i said to Lena as she just sat on the blue chair that nobody uses in the cafeteria because a nerd sits there sometimes

LENA'S POV:

UGH Why does he have to make it so damn hard ? i mentally asked myself

I put in my earphones as i listened to some pop songs and flipped through the pages of the book i was currently borrowing from the library called' Teen Idol'

LEO'S POV:

What the hell is wrong to her?

What did I do?

LENAAAAAA !!! I yelled as i shook her shoulders

LENA'S POV:

I wanted to speak to him but most importantly i wanted Him , I wanted us but i just cant

I got up from the chair and stormed off with my head slightly lowered as i heard him walking closer to me. I was about to go to the girl's washroom to cool off but Leo grabbed me by my arm and spun me around to face him then he said:

Lena no matter how many times you ignore me , yell at me or insult me , It wont push me away because i want you , why the hell cant you see that?

I cant be with you Leo , i said while a tear rolled down my right eye

Why Lena ? Because im an Atheist?

Please, I will start to research on Christianity if it means being with you do not give up on us Lena just do not

I dont want to ruin your life i just want you to get what you deserve , You are an extraordinary individual and you deserve nothing but the best not some dumb broken hearted girl

WHAT? DUMB? Lena you are amazing and maybe you are not the best person in the world but to me you are , To me you are perfect and I will not stop fighting until i get you , i said it all to her before :

I bent down, my lips against her cheek, brushing it lightly-and still that light touch sent shivers through her nerves, shivers that made her whole body tremble. "If you want me to stop, tell me now," I whispered. When she still said nothing, I brushed my mouth against the hollow of her temple. "Or now." I traced the line of her cheekbone. "Or now." my lips were against hers.

LENA'S POV:

Our lips were no longer connected so i stared into his eyes and i smiled shyly . I want you Leo i really do but promise me one thing handsome?

LEO'S POV:

Of Course beautiful , what is it about?

LENA'S POV:

Well , i want you to promise to never hurt me i said before i bowed my head feeling scared of the reply he was going to give me

LEO'S POV:

Lena i would never hurt you always remember that

LENA'S POV:

Well you might want to kiss many other girls at times because i argue a lot , i told Leo before i lowered my head with a smile

LEO'S POV:

I'd rather argue with you, than kiss someone else Lena .

LENA'S POV:

And now i think i have the cheesiest boyfriend ever

LEO'S POV:

Wait... Did you just say boyf--

But she had reached up and pulled him down to her, and the rest of his words were lost against her mouth. He kissed her gently, carefully, but it wasn't gentleness she wanted, not now, not after all this time, and she knotted her fists in his shirt, pulling him harder against her.

ZOE'S POV:

Ewwwww can you guys please get a room , people still have to eat

LENA'S POV:

Im so sorry Zoe but you were the one who encouraged me to give him a chance and now i am so

LEO'S POV:

Wait you did that ? Zoe you are the best and if you did not know Darnel has the biggest crush on you i said before i winked at her and started to laugh before she walked away rolling her eyes

Lena was also laughing,she always said she hated her laugh but every time I hear her giggling through her nose, snorting adorably, I fell a little more in love with her.

LENA'S POV:

He had a laugh like glass shattering: sharp, brief, and sudden, crashing to a halt.He chuckled slowly and warmly, reminding me of honey.He had a crooked little laugh to match his crooked little smile--and his crooked little mind.

LEO'S POV:

Lena you need to get to History class now i would never want you to get another detention

He wrapped an arm around her shoulders and pulled her close, gently rubbing her arm. Despite the heaviness in her stomach, it fluttered at the feeling of her body pressed against his. She sunk into the warmth of his side, appreciative of the simple gesture. His touch made the room warmer somehow, her future within its walls seeming a little less bleak.

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