Just let me go

Im ugly.....

This book is rated (R) so don't come saying things when you have been warned.

(Alexandra)

"Your worthless!" He yell.

he whips my back I let out a scream.

I don't know why he does this to me... I never did anything wrong the person who haunt my dreams abusing me that's my monster called my father.. he never was like this when I was little, but at age 1o my mom died he started to drink and then... that's when the hitting started.

"You could have saved her you just had to be alive instead of her!" he punches me in the stomach.

I gasp for air and fall on the floor he kicks an whips my back then storms out of my room and leaves. I groan and gasp for air I manage to get up close my door lock it and head to the bathroom my arms are bruised I have a cuts on my back and stomach not to

Mention the bruises in my back and stomach to. it's been 7 years. this is my last year of high school ever since the beating started I lost all my friends. nobody knew I just isolated myself and people just treat me like I don't exist or like garbage they thought because of how I isolated myself I was a freak.

I can't even look at myself I'm ugly and pathetic who would ever want or love me.. My god I have to go to school tomorrow, time to wear the the oversized black hoodie with skinny jeans and vans. I gess he does hit me cause I have blonde hair and silver ice blue eyes they change with my mood, I got that from her....... mom. I go and take a quick shower make sure my doors locked and put my alarm on and go to bed and cry myself to sleep I can't even go and eat dinner there just not the apatite to risk that...

Beep🔔🔔🔔🔔beep

I quickly jump and turn off my alarm. I get dressed grab my back pack wallet keys and rush out the door. when I arrive at school, I put my hood up and walk in I get stares a lot. I quickly enter my math. Class and sit in the back so no one bothers me.

"Alright class the bell just rang class has started. we have a knew student well he's not knew to the community but he's back to this school if you don't know him. Xavier Harold's."

My heart stops my eyes go wide. we use to be friends he kept trying to talk to me....but I can't let nobody find out. not even if we were best friends but he always protected me from being bullied. He was always there.

I lift my head up to see not a mere boy I saw growing up with, but a man, but you can totally tell the bad boy type he's always been growing up.

"Alright sit down I have to take role." me g states.

he goes looks at me with a curious look then sits in the seat in front of me. then mr.g starts taking role.

"Alexandra Samuels?"

"Here" I raise my hand and quickly put it down and stare at my desk.

When I look up I see forest green eyes boring into mine I haven't see those eyes for six years. My face heats up I quickly avoid the Stare and pay attention in Class and wait for my day to pass.

*3hrs later lunch time*

The bell just rang and I head to the cafeteria and get my lunch I keep my head down until I hit something hard like a wall.

"Ouch." I look up to see a similar green eyes Xavier??? I gasp and quickly get up.

"Sorry" I say. I quickly head out of there head down Get lunch and head out side. we have woods in our school there's a little pond no one knows about with a meadow. it's where I go to eat think cry.... any thing it helps me for get things or....him. I sit down on the grass in front of the pond and eat my giant sandwich, I save half for dinner in my room. The. I just sit there. suddenly I see a family of little baby ducks I see the mom looking behind to make sure no one gets lost, left behind or forgotten. they head to the water and swim it's a unique thing it show what true love is. I look at the ducks as they swim and play when I see them I think of my mom.....