Just let me go

Lex i do understand

PLEASE READ THIS.
You may be wondering why the heck I haven't updated in forever...well my grandfather died recently it's been really hard on me. And i myself have been dealing with medical problems. I hope you like the chapter please I just need some encouragement to keep writing I hope that it might help me

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(Alexandra pov)
"Okay come on let's go up stairs we can watch some tv in my room."
I just nod my head and follow him upstairs.
"I see you haven't changed much" I say as we reached his room. I then see a picture of him and his stepfather and mom. He looked so happy. He was happy that Dave was his new new father I could tell.
"Yeah but I have over all"
I nod my head and sit down on the bed.
"So how's is your mom actually." I ask.
He smiled and I saw a glow, I miss seeing that in people making them smile. "She's doing great Dave dosent know this yet but she's pregnant" he grins. I smile a bit wow I smile "when is she going to tell him?"
"Tonight"
"That's great are you happy?"
I look in his eyes so much warmth in them. So much life.. "Yes I wanted siblings and i can't wait" it was funny how he acted like a completely exited child he plopped him self in the bed looking at the ceiling. "What about you lex how has life been?" I froze a bit biting my lip and lay my back looking at the ceiling. "it's alright"
I looked at him and I regretted it my breath hitches. he looked in my eyes burningly like I could feel him searching in me finding all my secrets screaming Out to him. "Lex what has been happening at school" my eyes quickly shut and I feel a palm on my face it tingles i flinch at the touch scared. I open my eyes finding myself staring into his bright eyes. "Xavier please don't touch me" I back a bit siting back up crossing my arms around my waist. "you changed lex head going on" his eye brows furrowed.
"Drop it Xavier " I spoke coldly I regret speaking like that but I'm to dark to speak happily. "your mom died in the car she." I turn around facing him "don't talk about my mother." I was getting angry memories flashing back anger on how it should have been me.
I saw Xavier's expression turn stone cold and then back to warmth understanding. "Was it Ashely" he then beckons a different topic. I clench my jaw his eyes narrow "for fuck sakes" he gets up and hugs me close I stand there then push him away "I don't like being touched"
"Did she fucking did what I think she did" he said "i closed my eyes at more memories "Xavier it's none of your business" I re open them "you don't understand me"
He looks at me with anger "i understand lex"
"I think I should go" I move twords the door and open it when Julies stands right near the door "oh dear you startled me I was just about to say dinners ready" and she walks down the stairs.
I bite the inside of my cheek looking at Xavier. "I will stay for dinner for your mom but after I am leaving" I look down at the floor and then walk down to the dinning room I sit down and Xavier sits across from me. Staring as his mom talks about a old family memory I smile a bit hiding my sadness. "So dear Hows working for Linda!" She smiled she was glowing it was sweet
I give a genuine smile back to hide myself "it's great Linda's Linda" I laugh a bit. i could still feel Xavier's stare.
As dinner end Julie stated "Well I have an announcement" She grind looking at Dave "dave my darling" she healed his hand with so much happiness compassion warmth...love she reminded me of my mom as I healed back some tears it hurt a lot I felt damaged. "I'm pregnant " she smiled Dave started to have tears in his eyes and for up grabbing her face "honey are you serious " he laughed a bit shakingly "yes" she stated once again he laughed picking her up twirling her around evens for their age they were young only 32. her arms around his neck and legs around his waist as she laughed and pecked his lips having her head against his "I'm going to be a father for a my second child" I was crying when he said that. he always considered Xavier his. He raised Xavier since he was born. his father left his mother pregnant at 15 shocking at the age but Dave never left her side. I looked at Xavier and he was smiling I wiped my tears. "congratulations you two" I laughed it was nice to laugh again it wasn't fake it was real. I wanted a future like them but what my future holds me even I know it be dark.