When bray left our house, its my time to talk to my mom again! To clear the things out na wala nang kame na magaganap. I know that she like brayden for me but I dont want to lie na for the sake na she's my mother, susundin ko gusto niya. Ito na ang chansa ko para gagawin ko ang gusto. Nasa tamang husto ng edad na ako and I can decide for myself. Alam ko na ginagawa nila ito for my own good but the hell, I can do it.
Habang naglalakad ako sa hallway ng house namin, I heard that my parents are arguing.
"I let Brayden stay because I want him for our Child! Its for her good—" sigaw ni mommy kay daddy.
"She can decide for her self Marianne! Don't make our daughter to feel uncomfortable here with us just because of your decision. Your STUPID SELFISH DECISION!" Diniin ni daddy ang mga huling salita niya at narinig ko na sinampal siya ni Mommy sa sobrang lakas ay hindi ko na kinata at binuksan ko na ang pintuan.
"What is this all about?" I asked them. I already knew it but I want to hear it from them.
"Nothing—" daddy cutted her line, "Its about brayden, sweetie." Hinilot niya ang forehead niya.
"What about him, dad?" I confusedly asked them.
"I want him for you, honey—"
"I want to clear these things for you mom, We're done! We broke up 4 years ago. I already moved on! We had our own lives. Cant you accept it? He left me with no reasons. QUESTION MARK AKO! After a month, I knew that he cheated. Is it right to give him another chance? Ayoko nang magpaka-tanga!" Sigaw ko habang umiiyak.
"I didn't know that. I am sorry—"
"I know. So please, can you leave me and let me decide for myself? Its for my own good." Pagmamakaawa ko.
"Okay. Basta don't hesitate to ask me for help." Ngiti ni mommy. Thanks! Sana naliwanagan na kayo.
After those things, I hurrily run to my bedroom because of the thing.
I need to talk with him. I need to say atleast 'Sorry' for the words I threw.
Napag-isipan kong tawagan siya pero baka masama loob niya saakin kaya textsan ko nalang.
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Bray, its me Jade. I am sorry about what happened earlier. I want to clear those things for you kase ayoko nang masaktan and its for our own good. I hope you understand and take care. Bye!
Nagugutom nako haynako talaga ako. Teka tignan ko nalang mga pagkain sa kitchen. Baka may natira pa na konti. I checked my phone and its 11:30 pm in the evening. Kaya pala. Maaga pala akong natulog kase iniisip ko si Bray. I hope he's fine.
Oh wala nang pagkain. Putek! Naalala ko pala nung tinanong ako, ang sabi ko "ayokong kumain." Bobo ko naman.
May nakita akong cup noodles, okay na to. Umakyat na ko at kumuha rin ako ng pang-inom. Kailangan ko pala i-send ang files ng bago naming kliyente. Oh shit! Nakaka stress naman tong buhay. Kung may available lang na ibang trabaho at malaki ang sahod, I'll go for it. Pero wala e. Walang kwenta, JOKE!
Di ko pa din nagawa report ko for the sales ng mga paints and frames na naibenta kanina. And speaking of paints, I designed a house earlier and nakalimutan kong san ko ito nilagay. Hahanapin ko nga.
NAWAWALA ANG DISENYO KO! Oh fuck! Nakakairita! Nilabas ko na lahat ng gamit ko sa bag ko at wala talaga. I'll check on my folders, baka andun.
"Holy shit! Where the hell is my designs?!" Naiiyak ko nang sabi. I remember na nilagay ko ito sa cubicle ko. Its impossible na may kumuha isa sa mga kasama ko ng designs ko.
