its refreshing that
we are talking again
but what happened to me during those three months?
i made a list.
1- betrayal. i curled up in a ball on the floor of my room and cried. for days
2- reflection. i thought of every situation that i had done something wrong (hint, all of them).
3- avoidance. i didnt want to do anything else to you. god know i was already a screw up.
4- acceptance. you saw me as toxic, worthless. i am. shit. im a terrible person.
5- clinical. the depression sunk in, my limbs were lead. i couldnt get out of bed. what was the point?
6- consideration. i considered everything. took every last detail into account. but i didnt try. just thought about it.
7- rereading. i went through all our old messages. it hurt like hell. that was the point. i deserved to suffer.
8- feeling. everything was felt at once. how can a human feel this much and not explode? i didnt know it was possible.
9- convincing. i convinced myself i was worth it, that i shouldnt listen to you, even though you were right like you always are.
10- peace. you didnt want to be friends, and i just accepted that and was at peace with myself for a while.
now youre back
im happy we are in a good place
the 10 steps i went through
were tough
almost killed me
but you're back
and im ok
im recovering
i forgive easily
but i will never forget.
-the honest truth of breakups
YOU ARE READING
Teardrops
Poetrythe earths fragile heart broke one day after you left and guess who had to glue it back together.
