Lian

Oh Jeez Rick

Oh my jesus. Oh no. NO NO NO. NO THIS CANT BE. THERES NO WAY!

I paced back and forth in front of L and I's bed. Dagger had gone back to our original household. Dims was asleep and L was out ordering food. I can't believe it. I can't believe I like a guy.

...Wait. If I was married to Gertrude because I liked her. Then I'm not gay... What am I? I thought long and hard until it clicked in my head.

I'm bisexual? Oh jesus. I sat down on the bed and swung my legs back and forth. What am I gonna do? He hates the thoughts of people shipping us together.

He'll probably hate me... I better just keep it to myself. And try to avoid Dimentio as much as possible. If he finds out that I'm bi he'll never leave me alone! My ear perked up due to the sound of the front door unlocking.

L! I jumped off the bed and swung open our door. I ran down the stairs like I was a 4 year old running down to see the presents under the Christmas tree. "L!" "Oh hi Ian!" He closed the front door and turned to me with a smile. I felt my face start to blush, oh no.

I shook my head and waved. "Something wrong?" "Nope! Just got surprised haha!" "Alright." "Hold on real quick please." "Sure." I ran back upstairs and into the bathroom. I slammed the door shut behind me. I turned the lock and looked in the mirror. My whole face was pink.

Did I really blush that much? Oh gosh. I turned the faucet on and wet my hands. I patted my face to try and stop it. I grabbed a nearby towel and dried my hands and face.

I turned the faucet off and unlocked the door. I opened it and walked back downstairs. "Hey, everything okay?" His voice was so soothing... I held my breath for a quick second so I wouldn't give it away. "Yeah, sorry to keep you waiting." "It's fine. Just glad your alright." Oh my god.

He's so caring... So-- perfect. Okay Ian stop right there. I shook my head to get the thoughts out of my head. "You good?" "Yeah yeah, just a mosquito." "Huh, okay. That's rather odd but if you say so." Eheh...

"Wanna watch a movie?" My heart dropped. I felt my face start to blush once more. I held my breath again. "Ian?" I let the air out. "Yeah! That sounds awesome!" Phew.

"Okay! I just bought Love Simon. I don't know, everyone was telling me it was a good movie." "Oh cool! What's it about?" "It's about this kid named Simon who's gay and hides it from everyone until he has a crush with someone online and he tries to find out who it is!" I froze. What do I do?! I can't say no! It will break his heart seeing as he spent money on this movie. I pretended to be excited.

"Awww! That sounds cute!" "Yeah! Kind of disgusting... But hey. Guess it's worth a shot, right?" I nodded slowly. "Okay! I'll get the movie ready. And you get snacks, can't have a movie without snacks, amiright?" I nodded again. "Yeah! Snacks are definitely needed!" "Indeed! Meet you upstairs!" L walked upstairs. I stated at the floor in fear. Oh gosh.

What do I do? I guess I have to watch this movie... I walked into the kitchen to make popcorn. I really hope. Nothing goes wrong.
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I wiped a single tear from my eye. The movie was so good! The ending really inspired me too tell L how I really felt about our friendship. The quote was so strong! It was talking about how you should just go for it and just be yourself!

"Man. That was really emotional." L turned the tv off. Okay. This is it. I built up enough courage to confess. "But that was a little disgusting... Like two boys being a couple? No thanks." ...

Okay... Maybe not. "Did you wanna say something Ian?" "Uh... Yeah! It was a really good movie!" "Yeah it was! Oh, I'll be right back." He stood up and left the room. I stared at the floor. What now?

The fact that he just hates the idea of male couples ruined my chances. I should just give up now. But I can't help it. He's just so perfect. He has the same problems as me.

Dislikes as me and many more things. We just have too much in common. I sighed. But then again. I heard it from his own mouth.

Disgusting. I grabbed one of his pillows and hugged it tightly. What am I suppose too do? I can't tell him how I feel. I don't even know how I feel...

I sighed and buried my face in the pillow. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Oh man. What have. I gotten myself into?