Was We Friends

It Happened At A Party

I Sat Up Nervously Looking At My Sister Thinking About How I Would Disappoint Her Knowing What I Was About To Tell Her. "Remember That Party Danjela Had In March?" I Began Saying. "Well It Was Suppose To Be Fun , It Was Everything But Fun". I Lied.I Sat Up Now Rubbing My Eyes. "There Was Alot Of Liquor And Weed , I Didn't Know That She Tapped The Punch. Xavier And I Was Drunk And High At The Same Time , You Know , Just Turning Up Having Fun." I Continued. "We Started Talking About Our Future And Xavier Started Saying How He Wanted To Be With Me And How He Liked Me For A Long Time".

"I Loved You For A Long Time Stace , I Don't Know How You Never Picked Up On It" Xavier Said Slurring His Words. "You Never Gave Me A Got Damn Chance , When Ever I Wanted To Hang You Was Always Up Underneath Your Friends".  I Sat There Gazing Into His Light Brown Eyes , His Eyes Matched With His Dark Chocolate Skin. I Mean I Guess I Had Feelings For Him Too. I Just Never Really Thought About It Because Lets Face It , I'm A 16 Year Old Girl. I Don't Give A Fuck About Love. Only 'Till It Finds Me. I Realized I Wasn't Saying This Part Out Loud , I Was Flashing Back To It. My Sister Is Giving Me The ,'Dont Leave Me Hanging' Look , So I Finished Telling Her The Story But Skipping Over The Flash Back.

"He Started Bringing Me Up Stairs Into Danjelas Room". The Memories Started To Come All Back To Me. He Layed Me Down On The Bed Examining Every Single Part Of My Body With His Eyes. He Commenced Kissing Me On My Neck , While Doing This He Was Rubbing My Thigh. Whispering "You're Mine Tonight" With The Most Beautiful Smile I've Ever Seen. I Relaxed And Let Him Undress Me . We Undressed Each Other. My Body Started Shaking And Getting Warmer , He Held Me Close To Him. Kissing Me Slowly And Sexually. I Loved Every Moment Of It But I Knew It Was Wrong. I Didn't Give A Damn Though. I Closed My Eyes And Loosened Up To Him. I Love Him , I Thought To Myself. We Had To Be About 10 Minutes Into This And Nothing Happened Yet , We Just Took Our Time. I Was Happy With This. I Looked Up To Him Staring At Me From In Between My Legs. "I Love You Stacey King". Replacing My Last Name With His. "I Love You Too Mr.King". We Kissed And Started Smiling In The Middle Of This. I Love That. He Look Me In The Eye As He Reached For His Condom. "Protection First". I Laughed. He Glanced Into My Eyes For A Long Time. "Stacey , I'm Sorry , I Just Can't" Xavier Said Furiously Getting From Out Of My Legs. "What Are You Doing , Did I Do Something Wrong?". "No Stace , It's Just , You And I Are Both Fucked Up, I Wanna Do This Another Time When We're Sober. I Respect You More Than That". I Cried At What He Said. "Thank You". "No Need To Thank Me, I Love You Too Much For That" He Said. "Yeah I Know , I Love You Too". I Hugged Him. We Fixed Ourselves Up And Headed Down Stairs , Pretending Nothing Happened .

Tears Formed From My Eyes And Hit My Face. The Flash Backs Was Gone And At This Moment We Can Say I Was Acting A Hot Mess. "Valentine I Can't Tell You, It's Too Personal. I Just Wanna See Xavier". "No , You Anit Seeing Nobody 'Till You Tell Me What Happened Between Yall". "Vale Why Can't You Just Respect My Privacy, I HATE YOU!". The Words I Said Must've Soaked In Good Because Vale Didn't Hit Me Or Freak Out. "Y-y-you hate me? , I Just Want Nothing But The Best For You, I Don't Wanna See You Hurt. There's Nothing Wrong With A Few Regrets Sis". "I Know Vale , But Nothing Happened Okay?". I Passed Her The Tissue Box. "Thanks. But Can You Answer This Question Since You're Not Going To Crack?". "Yeah Sure". Valentine Looked Up At Me With So Much Pride In Her Eyes. "Did You Have Sex With Him?". "No , But Almost".

"Look Stace , I Know Your Young And All But There's Nothing Wrong With Feeling The Urg And Being Turned On By Someone. Just Make Sure It's With The Right Person And You Use PROTECTION". She Dragged The Hell Outta That Word. We Both Burst Out Laughing. "Okay Valentine , I Got Chu. But Can I Umm Talk To Xavier?". "No I Don't Want You Talking Or Getting Any Visits From Your Friends , I'll Be Sure To Let Dr.Nancy Know This As Well". I Rolled My Eyes "Okay" I Said , Agreeing To What She Said. "Now You Lay Down And Get Some Rest, I'll Tell The Others At Home What Happened To You And We'll Stop By Tomorrow. I Moaned . "Okay Okay Okay , Whatever , Leave Me Be Now". She Planted A Kiss On My Forehead And Walked Out. "Love You Stace". Love You Too Vale". I Saw Her Talking To Dr.Nancy. I Was Trying To Ease Drop But Another Nurse Gave Me Some Medication And Before I Can Even Think About Saying Something I Started Dozing Until I Was Knocked.